Saturday, August 12, 2006
blessings after blessings...
thinking that everything's impossible? how can a miracle happen in ur life? will God really bless u when u pray or does He even hear ur prayers or ur cry to Him? i realli pray that this post will be one that will change ur mentality n gear u up for bigger dreams for God by faith!!
have been facing many problems lately, realli was emotionally weak... feeling that time has came to a stop, everything is jus so mondane... jus feel that i dun belong at home, school...? 'pls end sch faster!' and jus dun feel like doing anything else... SLACK! who understands what i'm going thru'? realli felt so tight up emotionally.. worse still, was still feeling nauseous everyday!! haiz, wad's happening to me? jus feel like shunning away from everyone that i've met...
all my follow-upees not coming for service n cg... it has been a toil on me to get back the same reply or even no reply at times when confirmimg attendance... [little carys can't find her sheep...] i will believe n keep believing with all my heart, but... when God? when...?....
felt horrible at cca todae... deciding if i should quit or not... i actualli cried infront of my teacher whom i dun realli trust =( well, went for Planetshaker's concert WITHOUT excitement n expectation... jus going for the fun of it... little did i noe that from that moment on, God changed everything...
i felt the strong presence of God in that place during worship n began to kneel before God n wept.. He spoke right into my life that i need to noe Him more, He also comforted me that He's in control of everything n it'll soon be fine... He also brought me back to Our first love n reminded me once n for all... He'll never be far, for He's just a prayer away... before confirming attendance at 930pm, the Holy Spirit prompted me to sms Stacy... someone whom i never tot i would ever sms again... the chances of her replying was only 50%... lost contact with her since the beginning of this year, her hp was confiscated, strict parental control from stepping out of the house n so it was impossible for me to meet her at her house void deck, can't call her house... WRONG NO.! only thru' the pathetic msn ( when sometimes she dun even reply =/ ) stayed faithful in praying for her every night, waiting for God to do smth... n indeed, Stacy replied!! after knowing who i was, i asked her for service once again... but she said she was grounded... but maybe... she could come after exams!!! whee~ erm... if only her mum allows... :/ i den asked her, 'the important question is,... do u realli wanna come? if yes, all are possible n i'll be praying for u...' ,she replied" i want to!"... at that time, i was overjoyed n just stunned for a moment... and when i asked that she got back her hp already? she told me that she was allowed to use only for that day... ARE U AMAZED??! i truely am!
Well, that's not all!!! if u've been a faithful visitor to my blog, do u remember the day i was late for my chinese papers n didn't manage to complete the paper?? todae just got back the results that i was so dreadful to receive... guess wad? I PASSED!! Yeay! =] 26/50! haha... n the other component was the horendous compo, the worse i tot i've ever written... only wrote 3/4 a page n the story was super brief n incomplete ( dun believe can let u read it man..) but,... I PASSED IT!! 14/25! when i received my paper, i was dumbfounded, totally! Wow... God is indeed real in my life n so can He be in ur life too! Amen? [Proverbs 20:21-22]
thinking that everything's impossible? how can a miracle happen in ur life? will God really bless u when u pray or does He even hear ur prayers or ur cry to Him? i realli pray that this post will be one that will change ur mentality n gear u up for bigger dreams for God by faith!!
have been facing many problems lately, realli was emotionally weak... feeling that time has came to a stop, everything is jus so mondane... jus feel that i dun belong at home, school...? 'pls end sch faster!' and jus dun feel like doing anything else... SLACK! who understands what i'm going thru'? realli felt so tight up emotionally.. worse still, was still feeling nauseous everyday!! haiz, wad's happening to me? jus feel like shunning away from everyone that i've met...
all my follow-upees not coming for service n cg... it has been a toil on me to get back the same reply or even no reply at times when confirmimg attendance... [little carys can't find her sheep...] i will believe n keep believing with all my heart, but... when God? when...?....
felt horrible at cca todae... deciding if i should quit or not... i actualli cried infront of my teacher whom i dun realli trust =( well, went for Planetshaker's concert WITHOUT excitement n expectation... jus going for the fun of it... little did i noe that from that moment on, God changed everything...
i felt the strong presence of God in that place during worship n began to kneel before God n wept.. He spoke right into my life that i need to noe Him more, He also comforted me that He's in control of everything n it'll soon be fine... He also brought me back to Our first love n reminded me once n for all... He'll never be far, for He's just a prayer away... before confirming attendance at 930pm, the Holy Spirit prompted me to sms Stacy... someone whom i never tot i would ever sms again... the chances of her replying was only 50%... lost contact with her since the beginning of this year, her hp was confiscated, strict parental control from stepping out of the house n so it was impossible for me to meet her at her house void deck, can't call her house... WRONG NO.! only thru' the pathetic msn ( when sometimes she dun even reply =/ ) stayed faithful in praying for her every night, waiting for God to do smth... n indeed, Stacy replied!! after knowing who i was, i asked her for service once again... but she said she was grounded... but maybe... she could come after exams!!! whee~ erm... if only her mum allows... :/ i den asked her, 'the important question is,... do u realli wanna come? if yes, all are possible n i'll be praying for u...' ,she replied" i want to!"... at that time, i was overjoyed n just stunned for a moment... and when i asked that she got back her hp already? she told me that she was allowed to use only for that day... ARE U AMAZED??! i truely am!
Well, that's not all!!! if u've been a faithful visitor to my blog, do u remember the day i was late for my chinese papers n didn't manage to complete the paper?? todae just got back the results that i was so dreadful to receive... guess wad? I PASSED!! Yeay! =] 26/50! haha... n the other component was the horendous compo, the worse i tot i've ever written... only wrote 3/4 a page n the story was super brief n incomplete ( dun believe can let u read it man..) but,... I PASSED IT!! 14/25! when i received my paper, i was dumbfounded, totally! Wow... God is indeed real in my life n so can He be in ur life too! Amen? [Proverbs 20:21-22]
what we could have been, 12:35 AM.
