Monday, April 30, 2007
boohoo.
bad day to begin with.
got caught for my ankle socks, however, i thought that the teacher was a lil' too extreme. unreasonable.
hmm,
i exceeded the limit by writing 263 words instead of 150 words for summary. n yesh i know i'm dead meat. oh wells, then another teacher scolded me for nothing n did not even apologise when she found out that it was her own fault. bahh. God, what have i done to offend teachers? -.-
and the worse thing that can ever happen during exams..
diarrhoea! guess i jus have yet to recover. =\ at the same time with my body constantly rejecting food, i think i can realli slim down le. =x
tml.
study, study, STUDY!
come join my nerd club! woo~ =x
no luh, study for God! yay!
i shall put aside the initial plannings, proved futile.
bahh.
listening-- Every Little Thing ( yes James, Delirious? rocks!) :D
bad day to begin with.
got caught for my ankle socks, however, i thought that the teacher was a lil' too extreme. unreasonable.
hmm,
i exceeded the limit by writing 263 words instead of 150 words for summary. n yesh i know i'm dead meat. oh wells, then another teacher scolded me for nothing n did not even apologise when she found out that it was her own fault. bahh. God, what have i done to offend teachers? -.-
and the worse thing that can ever happen during exams..
diarrhoea! guess i jus have yet to recover. =\ at the same time with my body constantly rejecting food, i think i can realli slim down le. =x
tml.
study, study, STUDY!
come join my nerd club! woo~ =x
no luh, study for God! yay!
i shall put aside the initial plannings, proved futile.
bahh.
listening-- Every Little Thing ( yes James, Delirious? rocks!) :D
what we could have been, 10:08 PM.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
uhh.
feeling cold when only the fan is switched on.
only after wearing a jacket n covering myself with a blanket kept me warm. =\
yet, i feel warm inside. hmm.
bad sign.
God! i cannot fall sick!
boohoo.
mind spinning uncontrollably, pls.. no more.
feeling cold when only the fan is switched on.
only after wearing a jacket n covering myself with a blanket kept me warm. =\
yet, i feel warm inside. hmm.
bad sign.
God! i cannot fall sick!
boohoo.
mind spinning uncontrollably, pls.. no more.
what we could have been, 5:49 PM.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
lalalalalas~
thank you.
thank you, thank you.
thank you, thank you, thank you!
ahh, i jus can't express the extent of my gratefulness. =x
yes, Yanyu.. thank U for always believing in me.
ur encouragement n trust realli boosted my lvl of faith in seeing certain things come to past in my life.
*
service was great.
Eelee shared her vision, Ps Shirley spoke of prophecies.
jus so awesome. somehow rekindled my desire to see certain things to come to past again. desire of quantum leap in growth.
*inhales*
i'm glad i'm part of God's project team. (:
if You can use anyone Lord, please use me too!
listening-- Lord Of All
thank you.
thank you, thank you.
thank you, thank you, thank you!
ahh, i jus can't express the extent of my gratefulness. =x
yes, Yanyu.. thank U for always believing in me.
ur encouragement n trust realli boosted my lvl of faith in seeing certain things come to past in my life.
*
service was great.
Eelee shared her vision, Ps Shirley spoke of prophecies.
jus so awesome. somehow rekindled my desire to see certain things to come to past again. desire of quantum leap in growth.
*inhales*
i'm glad i'm part of God's project team. (:
if You can use anyone Lord, please use me too!
listening-- Lord Of All
what we could have been, 11:38 PM.
Friday, April 27, 2007
argh.
i realli love them so so so much,
to the extend that it hurts me when they seem to be hovering about without a safe landing.
why.
i don't even know whether to step further in or stay at one side.
this dilemma is even more painful than picking up courage to make the next move.
i want to be there for them, however, it jus makes me bleed when i don't know how..
you want to but you can't..
that kind of feeling realli hurts.
i've searched myself so deep that i dunno the way out.
why did You choose me God?
do i realli deserve this responsibility?
i feel so _____. so inadequate.
Lord, You are the Porter and i'm jus the clay.
craft me out, i'm fully Yours..
How can i keep from singing
There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling
How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing
I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give
I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne
i shall continue to sing. (:
i realli love them so so so much,
to the extend that it hurts me when they seem to be hovering about without a safe landing.
why.
i don't even know whether to step further in or stay at one side.
this dilemma is even more painful than picking up courage to make the next move.
i want to be there for them, however, it jus makes me bleed when i don't know how..
you want to but you can't..
that kind of feeling realli hurts.
i've searched myself so deep that i dunno the way out.
why did You choose me God?
do i realli deserve this responsibility?
i feel so _____. so inadequate.
Lord, You are the Porter and i'm jus the clay.
craft me out, i'm fully Yours..
How can i keep from singing
There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling
How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing
I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give
I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne
i shall continue to sing. (:
what we could have been, 9:51 PM.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
almost died. lol.
had to take NAPFA which was pushed back to ystd due to preparation for syf last week.
horror, had PE todae and that time of the month came. -.-
it was torturous.
dehydrated n muscle aches everywhere. =\
oh well,
TGTIF!~ thank God tml is Friday! =x
one last day, gotta push on....
and next week is MID YEARS!! *screams*
gonna do well man, having faith that God will bring me thru' all the papers victoriously! :D
[Exodus 14:14] (: kemparteh evrybody!
had to take NAPFA which was pushed back to ystd due to preparation for syf last week.
horror, had PE todae and that time of the month came. -.-
it was torturous.
dehydrated n muscle aches everywhere. =\
oh well,
TGTIF!~ thank God tml is Friday! =x
one last day, gotta push on....
and next week is MID YEARS!! *screams*
gonna do well man, having faith that God will bring me thru' all the papers victoriously! :D
[Exodus 14:14] (: kemparteh evrybody!
what we could have been, 9:18 PM.
hmm.
test after test n oral after oral.
physically n mentally draining me out.
struggling hard to meet deadlines for every subjects' piece of work.
i jus wan to give my best for God's glory. (: i want a breakthru' in my academic performance. whee~
though school is extremely exhausting to deal with, piles of homework are killing my brain cells by every minute, i still thank God that i can always turn to Him, my source of strength and hope to push on.
i'm not born an Einstein but God can use me to do much more than Einstein did! woo. =D
listening-- Royalty by Hillsong Kids. (kids rawk okay!) hees.
test after test n oral after oral.
physically n mentally draining me out.
struggling hard to meet deadlines for every subjects' piece of work.
i jus wan to give my best for God's glory. (: i want a breakthru' in my academic performance. whee~
though school is extremely exhausting to deal with, piles of homework are killing my brain cells by every minute, i still thank God that i can always turn to Him, my source of strength and hope to push on.
i'm not born an Einstein but God can use me to do much more than Einstein did! woo. =D
listening-- Royalty by Hillsong Kids. (kids rawk okay!) hees.
what we could have been, 12:26 AM.
Monday, April 23, 2007
syf is finalli over!
:) =] ^.^ x) :D *v* countless emotions. hah.
though it was a silver we got, the central judging thingy opened our eyes to the bigger picture of what Handbell Ensemble realli is. highly rewarding. (:
anyhow, am realli touched by Charmaine ( a 3 week old new believer.).
somehow, she suddenly shared certain quite personal struggle that she overcame recently and told me she felt that her life has changed alot eversince the day she received Jesus into her life.
such a simple statement is realli a power testimony that never failed to encourage me.
n bcuz i know that God is doing smth in shss, i want to give my best to win the sch for Jesus! :D
hmm.
i guess i'm realli afraid of heat. didn't sleep for more than 3 hrs cuz of the stuffiness of my bedroom, plus the weather was relatively humid in the middle of the night. so now, i'm as dead as a zombie while posting todae's entry.
there's MT oral tml!
i want to do my best. (:
listening--How Can I Keep From Singing.
:) =] ^.^ x) :D *v* countless emotions. hah.
though it was a silver we got, the central judging thingy opened our eyes to the bigger picture of what Handbell Ensemble realli is. highly rewarding. (:
anyhow, am realli touched by Charmaine ( a 3 week old new believer.).
somehow, she suddenly shared certain quite personal struggle that she overcame recently and told me she felt that her life has changed alot eversince the day she received Jesus into her life.
such a simple statement is realli a power testimony that never failed to encourage me.
n bcuz i know that God is doing smth in shss, i want to give my best to win the sch for Jesus! :D
hmm.
i guess i'm realli afraid of heat. didn't sleep for more than 3 hrs cuz of the stuffiness of my bedroom, plus the weather was relatively humid in the middle of the night. so now, i'm as dead as a zombie while posting todae's entry.
there's MT oral tml!
i want to do my best. (:
listening--How Can I Keep From Singing.
what we could have been, 9:26 PM.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
calmed down.
thank You for bringing me thru' the journey home from RC.
fighting the battle of the mind was tearing me apart.
the peace You gave is the thing that i needed most, thank You. (:
i know it's going to be painful, however, i shall continue to give the benefit of doubt.
i want a direction n a specific goal from You.
carry me thru' Lord. make a change, a miracle.
God, i meant the prayer i prayed jus now. help me in this n lead me along.
thank You Lord.
listening--From The Inside Out
thank You for bringing me thru' the journey home from RC.
fighting the battle of the mind was tearing me apart.
the peace You gave is the thing that i needed most, thank You. (:
i know it's going to be painful, however, i shall continue to give the benefit of doubt.
i want a direction n a specific goal from You.
carry me thru' Lord. make a change, a miracle.
God, i meant the prayer i prayed jus now. help me in this n lead me along.
thank You Lord.
listening--From The Inside Out
what we could have been, 9:01 PM.
i feel so..
small.
and i hate it.
where's the trust element? i feel so inferior that i dare not hold up my dreams for God anymore. it's so different from before. i try my best to listen, give in, humble myself but it's jus killing me inside. i wish u realli took what i said seriously, not jus any passing comment. i'm not asking u to change n adapt to me but can't u jus trust me?
i tried to always give the benefit of doubt, however, things proved me wrong time n again.
God, pls tell me how.
listening--How i love You
small.
and i hate it.
where's the trust element? i feel so inferior that i dare not hold up my dreams for God anymore. it's so different from before. i try my best to listen, give in, humble myself but it's jus killing me inside. i wish u realli took what i said seriously, not jus any passing comment. i'm not asking u to change n adapt to me but can't u jus trust me?
i tried to always give the benefit of doubt, however, things proved me wrong time n again.
God, pls tell me how.
listening--How i love You
what we could have been, 10:42 AM.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
syf is on mon!!!
many things unsettled in the syf grp.
thank God for peace n joy, i feel so much lighter.
*
indeed.
having sheeps forces u to grow. *stabs self*
so many growth points n shortcomings, turn them into strengths Lord!
so cool! first time shepherding my sheep in sch! SCH! hahas, shss gotta grow! woots~
realli thankful n wow-ed by Charmaine for responding to the WOG.
thank You for such an enthusiastic n supportive sheep. (:
we are starting small but we won't remain small! Amen!
i pray for more time to evax n sow.
i pray that i can cope well wif my studies.
i pray that my sheeps will continue to grow.
i pray for more breakthru's in my life.
i pray for..... many other prayer that i've prayed for others.
in Jesus' name, Amen! =D
many things unsettled in the syf grp.
thank God for peace n joy, i feel so much lighter.
*
indeed.
having sheeps forces u to grow. *stabs self*
so many growth points n shortcomings, turn them into strengths Lord!
so cool! first time shepherding my sheep in sch! SCH! hahas, shss gotta grow! woots~
realli thankful n wow-ed by Charmaine for responding to the WOG.
thank You for such an enthusiastic n supportive sheep. (:
we are starting small but we won't remain small! Amen!
i pray for more time to evax n sow.
i pray that i can cope well wif my studies.
i pray that my sheeps will continue to grow.
i pray for more breakthru's in my life.
i pray for..... many other prayer that i've prayed for others.
in Jesus' name, Amen! =D
what we could have been, 9:15 AM.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
brain's on an auto-run again.
many things ran thru' my mind.
can't stifle the extend of my thoughts, maybe it's jus beyond me.
sense of fear seems to creep in by the second.
how can i be so _______.
jus felt realli lousy, heavy-hearted.
i'm not gonna stay down forever. i am so not going that way!
i must see a breakthru' in my life.
God, pls help me get back on my feet.
we'll do tis together! we'll both trample Satan under our feets and emerge victorious!
P.R.A.Y-- Pray Until Something Happens. i will definitely do so.
work out something in my heart, rejuvanate it.
Jesus, pls ever so kindly, take this wheel and bring me along.
i want to live my life according to Your sovereign ways n not mine..
listening-- Three Wooden Cross
many things ran thru' my mind.
can't stifle the extend of my thoughts, maybe it's jus beyond me.
sense of fear seems to creep in by the second.
how can i be so _______.
jus felt realli lousy, heavy-hearted.
i'm not gonna stay down forever. i am so not going that way!
i must see a breakthru' in my life.
God, pls help me get back on my feet.
we'll do tis together! we'll both trample Satan under our feets and emerge victorious!
P.R.A.Y-- Pray Until Something Happens. i will definitely do so.
work out something in my heart, rejuvanate it.
Jesus, pls ever so kindly, take this wheel and bring me along.
i want to live my life according to Your sovereign ways n not mine..
listening-- Three Wooden Cross
what we could have been, 8:04 PM.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
if i could ______ at u, i would have done it loooong ago.
i jus don't understand why u have to do what u do to me time n again.
rahh.
i can put up with your nonsense but don't u think u've gone too far?
what's ur intention? asking me to "jiayou" jus bcuz u want Handbell to win Gold for SYF yet stealthily hold that blood-stained dagger jus to stab me from behind again n again.
can u not be so hypocritical? =(
okay,what crap. like it'll happen. -.-
yes, it will with prayer. (:
God, help me to love her.
i jus don't understand why u have to do what u do to me time n again.
rahh.
i can put up with your nonsense but don't u think u've gone too far?
what's ur intention? asking me to "jiayou" jus bcuz u want Handbell to win Gold for SYF yet stealthily hold that blood-stained dagger jus to stab me from behind again n again.
can u not be so hypocritical? =(
okay,what crap. like it'll happen. -.-
yes, it will with prayer. (:
God, help me to love her.
what we could have been, 6:36 PM.
Monday, April 16, 2007
uhh.
sch was definitely torturous todae.
i was jus like stoning away thru'out certain lessons.
everything that came out of the teachers' mouth were nothing to me but sound. -.-
struggling to convince myself that i could understand those lessons but the only respond i could make was to stare back at the teacher blankly. =\
three more weeks to Mid-year exams.
God, how?
listening--Here i am to worship.
sch was definitely torturous todae.
i was jus like stoning away thru'out certain lessons.
everything that came out of the teachers' mouth were nothing to me but sound. -.-
struggling to convince myself that i could understand those lessons but the only respond i could make was to stare back at the teacher blankly. =\
three more weeks to Mid-year exams.
God, how?
listening--Here i am to worship.
what we could have been, 10:43 PM.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
hrmph.
seemed like i'm brain dead the whole day.
don't like the feeling, not even one bit. =(
dunno why the sudden melancholy.
Sunday blues or pre-Monday blues? lol.
i think it's prolly cuz i slept at 4am yesterday.
better start changing my sleeping habits or it'll drain my mood too. =\
renewal of mind, spirit n soul. ah, that's what i need. (:
listening-- Gratitude by Nichole Nordeman.
seemed like i'm brain dead the whole day.
don't like the feeling, not even one bit. =(
dunno why the sudden melancholy.
Sunday blues or pre-Monday blues? lol.
i think it's prolly cuz i slept at 4am yesterday.
better start changing my sleeping habits or it'll drain my mood too. =\
renewal of mind, spirit n soul. ah, that's what i need. (:
listening-- Gratitude by Nichole Nordeman.
what we could have been, 10:50 PM.
Indeed!
God is never early but always on time! =D
the timely sermon that God had used to speak to me thru' Ps. Jeff, "Forsaking Our Fears", was timely inline with my current situation.
so much i've learnt.
simply, the essences of the sermon that captured my heart was that when God is with us, we do not have to fear.
for i know who holds my future and the One who holds my hand. (:
//
anyhow, had an enjoyable time studying at airport's BK wif Melissa n Qinning jus now. we went crazy laughing while taking photos on the spacious train. ( oh alrite, maybe it's only me.. =x ) n i have no idea why Qinning would get mixed up wif the terms of numbness n cramp in Chinese. why wud anyone say, " wo de ji rou ma bi.."? ROFL. (apologies to those who dunno Chinese. =x )
#
well,
i didn't bring my keys again so had to wait for dad to pick me up after his work.
bus-ed to the ulu bus-stop which i wasn't given any clear guide to the hawker where i'm suppose to meet him at. i stoned n stoned, all i could see were flats after flats... where's the hawker?? -.- so i decided to do smth wise after stoning for ten mins. ask ppl for directions!!! woohoo, revelation. -.-'' lol. somehow, there wasn't any single soul left around the vacinity except for some foreigners as it was quite late already.
then, God prompted me to jus cross the road. i hesitated a lil' as i was afraid i might get lost. however, i cross the road n walked straight up the long cemented path. n guess wad? after ten mins, i saw the hawker hidden behind the multi-storey carpark! woots! boy, was i glad. (:
thru' this lil' incident, i'm reminded of this..
when God allows problems in our lives, do we pray that God'll do smth while making no efforts to solve them?
if we are obedient to God's calling n take a step of faith into the problem together with God, God'll definitely light up the path of our way n guide us out of the problem victoriously! (:
are u ready to sail thru' your 'sea of life' with God as the Captain todae?
totally enjoyed His presence today. (:
God is never early but always on time! =D
the timely sermon that God had used to speak to me thru' Ps. Jeff, "Forsaking Our Fears", was timely inline with my current situation.
so much i've learnt.
simply, the essences of the sermon that captured my heart was that when God is with us, we do not have to fear.
for i know who holds my future and the One who holds my hand. (:
//
anyhow, had an enjoyable time studying at airport's BK wif Melissa n Qinning jus now. we went crazy laughing while taking photos on the spacious train. ( oh alrite, maybe it's only me.. =x ) n i have no idea why Qinning would get mixed up wif the terms of numbness n cramp in Chinese. why wud anyone say, " wo de ji rou ma bi.."? ROFL. (apologies to those who dunno Chinese. =x )
#
well,
i didn't bring my keys again so had to wait for dad to pick me up after his work.
bus-ed to the ulu bus-stop which i wasn't given any clear guide to the hawker where i'm suppose to meet him at. i stoned n stoned, all i could see were flats after flats... where's the hawker?? -.- so i decided to do smth wise after stoning for ten mins. ask ppl for directions!!! woohoo, revelation. -.-'' lol. somehow, there wasn't any single soul left around the vacinity except for some foreigners as it was quite late already.
then, God prompted me to jus cross the road. i hesitated a lil' as i was afraid i might get lost. however, i cross the road n walked straight up the long cemented path. n guess wad? after ten mins, i saw the hawker hidden behind the multi-storey carpark! woots! boy, was i glad. (:
thru' this lil' incident, i'm reminded of this..
when God allows problems in our lives, do we pray that God'll do smth while making no efforts to solve them?
if we are obedient to God's calling n take a step of faith into the problem together with God, God'll definitely light up the path of our way n guide us out of the problem victoriously! (:
are u ready to sail thru' your 'sea of life' with God as the Captain todae?
totally enjoyed His presence today. (:
what we could have been, 12:25 AM.
Friday, April 13, 2007
oh my gosh!
i bet those who had misplaced their wallets before can identify with my feelings. =\
i was on bus 31 wif Mab, going home from Parkway. then i had to alight in a haste due to certain reason n that bus-stop was quite ulu too. anyhow, i jus waited there for dad's "multi-purpose" bus to come pick me up. as the time passed, i realli thought i alighted at the wrong stop. =x
anyway, dad called 10 mins later n asked me to cross the road instead. n oh well, i did. and for the 1st time in my life, i discovered that i don't know how to jaywalk. disclaimer!:( it was barely possible to get to the other end of the path to cross the road with the aid of the traffic light.) hmm, then a guy cycled passed me and okay, i shan't mention what happened. but argh, rahh! after another 15 mins, dad's bus finalli appeared n i found out that i lost my wallet after i hopped on!!! ahhh!
so... we drove back to the bus-stop n i realli searched like mad. i look high n low n even into any hole that i could spot, in fear that i might have dropped my wallet into one accidentally. being desperate, i went over to the opposite bus-stop to hunt for my wallet n trace back the path which i've set foot on. i was staring realli hard at the place where i sat at the bus-stop previously and the lady sitting there must have thought
that i'm some kind of pervert or something. -.-''
yea, realli was trying to backtrack what i last did n which part of the road i last crossed. lost in my thoughts so deep till i almost got knocked down by a car. the driver was honking desperately and it didn't catch my attention till he flickered the head lights that jolted me into reality and escape the approaching car. phew, if i were ever 1 second late in responding accordingly, i will most prolly be with God le. no exaggerating man!
okay.... actualli quite lorsoh but if u wanna know, come find me! i'll be more than willing n glad to share my answered prayer from God to u! =D
well, in the end... a kind soul reported my wallet n the police asked me to claim it back! woohoo~
don't God deserve a BIG BIG clap? (:
i bet those who had misplaced their wallets before can identify with my feelings. =\
i was on bus 31 wif Mab, going home from Parkway. then i had to alight in a haste due to certain reason n that bus-stop was quite ulu too. anyhow, i jus waited there for dad's "multi-purpose" bus to come pick me up. as the time passed, i realli thought i alighted at the wrong stop. =x
anyway, dad called 10 mins later n asked me to cross the road instead. n oh well, i did. and for the 1st time in my life, i discovered that i don't know how to jaywalk. disclaimer!:( it was barely possible to get to the other end of the path to cross the road with the aid of the traffic light.) hmm, then a guy cycled passed me and okay, i shan't mention what happened. but argh, rahh! after another 15 mins, dad's bus finalli appeared n i found out that i lost my wallet after i hopped on!!! ahhh!
so... we drove back to the bus-stop n i realli searched like mad. i look high n low n even into any hole that i could spot, in fear that i might have dropped my wallet into one accidentally. being desperate, i went over to the opposite bus-stop to hunt for my wallet n trace back the path which i've set foot on. i was staring realli hard at the place where i sat at the bus-stop previously and the lady sitting there must have thought
that i'm some kind of pervert or something. -.-''
yea, realli was trying to backtrack what i last did n which part of the road i last crossed. lost in my thoughts so deep till i almost got knocked down by a car. the driver was honking desperately and it didn't catch my attention till he flickered the head lights that jolted me into reality and escape the approaching car. phew, if i were ever 1 second late in responding accordingly, i will most prolly be with God le. no exaggerating man!
okay.... actualli quite lorsoh but if u wanna know, come find me! i'll be more than willing n glad to share my answered prayer from God to u! =D
well, in the end... a kind soul reported my wallet n the police asked me to claim it back! woohoo~
don't God deserve a BIG BIG clap? (:
thank YOU!!!!!!!!
what we could have been, 9:56 PM.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
there.
today marks the last cg wif East E.
aww.. gonna miss this crazy yet fun-loving family lots.
well, i shan't say it's a sad farewell or smth bcuz it is a new start for everyone, especially me. (:
in a new group, under a new shepherd n CL.
for sure, i know things are different but i'm not gg to allow my surroundings change me bcuz i am very sure of who i am in Christ! i'll do my best to support my leader n be a good armour bearer to Shuhfy. i will follow her as she follows God n i mean every word i say... i am moving over to East C for a reason, which is to make a difference.
God, all this i may say but pls annoint me wif courage n strong faith to accomplish these wif You.. for when i'm weak, You are strong! =D no more compromising the standard of the KOG n the WOG. here i am, gonna stand out strong in faith, use me to make an impact. for it's You i'm living for!
one life, one story for one audience! (:
anyhow, the human tic-tac-toe game i invented was a success! woo. thank God! it was realli a last minute thingy i came up wif while lying in bed. God is a innovative God! woohoo~
Carys can invent games!!! hahas. =)
Planet Shakers - Worship You Alone
Your faithfulness never fails
Your faithfulness everyday
You're the same
Unfailing love sets me free
Unfailing love you lead me
With your hand
And all i know
With your arms around me
Your face is all that i seek
Your love and grace
Pick me up and hold me
You alone are holy
For you alone are great in power
You alone are my strong tower
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone
For you alone are my desire
You have set my heart on fire
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone
Worship you alone
And i will follow after you
For you are my desire
Oh jesus, my heart belongs to you
i will carry the cross and follow after You..
following You with my 100 percent!
today marks the last cg wif East E.
aww.. gonna miss this crazy yet fun-loving family lots.
well, i shan't say it's a sad farewell or smth bcuz it is a new start for everyone, especially me. (:
in a new group, under a new shepherd n CL.
for sure, i know things are different but i'm not gg to allow my surroundings change me bcuz i am very sure of who i am in Christ! i'll do my best to support my leader n be a good armour bearer to Shuhfy. i will follow her as she follows God n i mean every word i say... i am moving over to East C for a reason, which is to make a difference.
God, all this i may say but pls annoint me wif courage n strong faith to accomplish these wif You.. for when i'm weak, You are strong! =D no more compromising the standard of the KOG n the WOG. here i am, gonna stand out strong in faith, use me to make an impact. for it's You i'm living for!
one life, one story for one audience! (:
anyhow, the human tic-tac-toe game i invented was a success! woo. thank God! it was realli a last minute thingy i came up wif while lying in bed. God is a innovative God! woohoo~
Carys can invent games!!! hahas. =)
Planet Shakers - Worship You Alone
Your faithfulness never fails
Your faithfulness everyday
You're the same
Unfailing love sets me free
Unfailing love you lead me
With your hand
And all i know
With your arms around me
Your face is all that i seek
Your love and grace
Pick me up and hold me
You alone are holy
For you alone are great in power
You alone are my strong tower
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone
For you alone are my desire
You have set my heart on fire
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone
Worship you alone
And i will follow after you
For you are my desire
Oh jesus, my heart belongs to you
i will carry the cross and follow after You..
following You with my 100 percent!
what we could have been, 10:41 PM.
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
why.
got stabbed from the back right thru'.
agony, disappointment.
worse of all she must persecute me. hello?? Christians do not brainwash ppl!! Salvation comes thru' faith n God's power.. why can't u understand? my heart goes all out for u, pls dun do that again.
yes, in such situation how can i not worry for my sheeps?
God, guard their hearts against the... "wolf". rahh.
well, running a high fever now of 39.0 degrees. -.- haha, who asked my brain to keep running. lols.
gotta realli rest this time! =x
tatas~
got stabbed from the back right thru'.
agony, disappointment.
worse of all she must persecute me. hello?? Christians do not brainwash ppl!! Salvation comes thru' faith n God's power.. why can't u understand? my heart goes all out for u, pls dun do that again.
yes, in such situation how can i not worry for my sheeps?
God, guard their hearts against the... "wolf". rahh.
well, running a high fever now of 39.0 degrees. -.- haha, who asked my brain to keep running. lols.
gotta realli rest this time! =x
tatas~
what we could have been, 10:31 PM.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
expectancy.
yes, expectancy for more! =P
no way Shss is going to stay at 4!
we're going to double by end April! woots!
great expectancy to see myself grow thru' God's pruning too.
[John 15: 1-8 ] Go Carys!!!
i have to admit.
i realli can't do it on my own..
God pls intervene.
so many things are beyond my control and i know i jus have to lay it before You.
Lord, help me to continually depend on You for breakthru's and growth.. help me to guide my sheeps closer to You... help me to defeat stress hands down in exchange for peace n joy in You!
in Your mighty name i commit all 'these' to You,
Amen. (:
yes, expectancy for more! =P
no way Shss is going to stay at 4!
we're going to double by end April! woots!
great expectancy to see myself grow thru' God's pruning too.
[John 15: 1-8 ] Go Carys!!!
i have to admit.
i realli can't do it on my own..
God pls intervene.
so many things are beyond my control and i know i jus have to lay it before You.
Lord, help me to continually depend on You for breakthru's and growth.. help me to guide my sheeps closer to You... help me to defeat stress hands down in exchange for peace n joy in You!
in Your mighty name i commit all 'these' to You,
Amen. (:
what we could have been, 7:54 PM.
Monday, April 09, 2007
to you,
if u wud ever visit tis blog...
"hmm..." is maybe the only expression i can use other than "hi".
jus felt the pinch when talking to u ystd. somehow like those of total strangers; acquaintance? i wonder if u feel the same too... or to u it's jus nothing? suddenly feel so so far from u and i dun dare to ask or even say a word anymore. the fear of disturbing u still exist, i wish to know why too.. it jus feels as if smth's missing n it didn't feel good either. well, maybe it's smth not of importance to u anyway.
argh.
forget it. u can treat it as i din say anything at all. (:
what we could have been, 10:28 PM.
hmm.
been puking recently.
wonder wad's happening inside my body. lols. =x
almost every subject are coming to me like total strangers. i can't seem to understand certain concepts n the feeling of ending each day of sch is jus torturous.
next wk is O lvl preliminary oral exam.
wow, God You must help me!
signing off here to do more mugging. -.-
been puking recently.
wonder wad's happening inside my body. lols. =x
almost every subject are coming to me like total strangers. i can't seem to understand certain concepts n the feeling of ending each day of sch is jus torturous.
next wk is O lvl preliminary oral exam.
wow, God You must help me!
signing off here to do more mugging. -.-
what we could have been, 3:30 PM.
Sunday, April 08, 2007
yet another hurdle.
there right before me is another huge hurdle.
Daddy, should i slow down n make a U-turn or jump over it wif a leap of faith?
i am scared.
but i know You'll hold my hand. help me to follow her as she follows You Lord. (:
many things i'm so uncertain of but i know there'll be a rainbow after each storm.
with all that i have n am given, i want to serve You to my best! mould n prune me God, make me more like You. definitely, it's not about numbers or status quo... but souls n the right heart or desire.
realli want to thank You for East Eccentric n my loving shepherd, Peiqing! sure will miss them lots but we're still serving the never-changing You! woots!
the church of God will grow from strength to strength n glory to glory! n i believe that with all my heart. =D
*******......*******......*******......*******
ystd's service was totally rewarding to the soul. i'm sure those who attended service can agree to that. (: anyhow, many farnie things happened after service. (excluding the enclosing of restructuring results =x )
i was trying to listen to the songs in Caijuan's hp and asked why i it was so inaudible when she started laughing at me cuz i hold the phone the other way. -.- LOL. and then, Crazy Carys in action again! =x did my spastic way of singing n Minyi n Caijuan seemed amused by my retarded "acts" lols. well, if only i am not a IT nut, i would most gladly post photos! =x hees. then, we went home after enjoying one another's company at Hemisphere. on our way home, our sharings n words encouraged us all to move on n desire to do greater things for God. i will never forget that train ride home with them. (: after we parted for home, naughty Siewling came behind me and scare me till i screamed at the control station. -.- so malu luh but it was sweet of her to say good-bye again. awww. hahas.
n last but not least....
song dedication to my beloved East Eccentric! woohoo~
i love this family of God,
so closely knited into one.
you've taken me into ur heart
and i'm so glad to to be a part
of this great family...
<3>
continue to jiayou for Jesus! (:
to PeiQing: "hiak hiak!" hees. (:
there right before me is another huge hurdle.
Daddy, should i slow down n make a U-turn or jump over it wif a leap of faith?
i am scared.
but i know You'll hold my hand. help me to follow her as she follows You Lord. (:
many things i'm so uncertain of but i know there'll be a rainbow after each storm.
with all that i have n am given, i want to serve You to my best! mould n prune me God, make me more like You. definitely, it's not about numbers or status quo... but souls n the right heart or desire.
realli want to thank You for East Eccentric n my loving shepherd, Peiqing! sure will miss them lots but we're still serving the never-changing You! woots!
the church of God will grow from strength to strength n glory to glory! n i believe that with all my heart. =D
*******......*******......*******......*******
ystd's service was totally rewarding to the soul. i'm sure those who attended service can agree to that. (: anyhow, many farnie things happened after service. (excluding the enclosing of restructuring results =x )
i was trying to listen to the songs in Caijuan's hp and asked why i it was so inaudible when she started laughing at me cuz i hold the phone the other way. -.- LOL. and then, Crazy Carys in action again! =x did my spastic way of singing n Minyi n Caijuan seemed amused by my retarded "acts" lols. well, if only i am not a IT nut, i would most gladly post photos! =x hees. then, we went home after enjoying one another's company at Hemisphere. on our way home, our sharings n words encouraged us all to move on n desire to do greater things for God. i will never forget that train ride home with them. (: after we parted for home, naughty Siewling came behind me and scare me till i screamed at the control station. -.- so malu luh but it was sweet of her to say good-bye again. awww. hahas.
n last but not least....
song dedication to my beloved East Eccentric! woohoo~
i love this family of God,
so closely knited into one.
you've taken me into ur heart
and i'm so glad to to be a part
of this great family...
<3>
continue to jiayou for Jesus! (:
to PeiQing: "hiak hiak!" hees. (:
what we could have been, 3:21 PM.
Friday, April 06, 2007
heavy hearted.
i wish i could have done more.
i'm prepared. Lord, i adhere to Your great plans for me.
aww... gonna miss Pq loads n loads! grateful for the life we shared tgt n thank God for placing such a loving n encouraging shepherd who nvr fails to trust me.
this restructuring jus feels much more different. she-bu-de yet excited. i'm ready for exponential growth! woo.
to me, the last shepherding was a meaningful one. the teaching was straight to the point but motivated n encouraged me even more. No matter where God places me, i'll choose to be Christ-like n He will alwaes be the One i'm living for. i want to live with the future in mind. (:
though todae was quite an emo day , the retreat wif God was indescribable.
tml's Easter service will be great. multitudes will come to know the Saviour! i believe wif all my heart that tis Easter would be a meaningful one for most of us bcuz i've witnessed it myself. =D praying for my visitor that she'll open her heart to God's word tml! Amen! (:
sorrie for my many "no-links" n random-ness. too tired i guess. =x
It's You i'm living for! (:
i wish i could have done more.
i'm prepared. Lord, i adhere to Your great plans for me.
aww... gonna miss Pq loads n loads! grateful for the life we shared tgt n thank God for placing such a loving n encouraging shepherd who nvr fails to trust me.
this restructuring jus feels much more different. she-bu-de yet excited. i'm ready for exponential growth! woo.
to me, the last shepherding was a meaningful one. the teaching was straight to the point but motivated n encouraged me even more. No matter where God places me, i'll choose to be Christ-like n He will alwaes be the One i'm living for. i want to live with the future in mind. (:
though todae was quite an emo day , the retreat wif God was indescribable.
tml's Easter service will be great. multitudes will come to know the Saviour! i believe wif all my heart that tis Easter would be a meaningful one for most of us bcuz i've witnessed it myself. =D praying for my visitor that she'll open her heart to God's word tml! Amen! (:
sorrie for my many "no-links" n random-ness. too tired i guess. =x
It's You i'm living for! (:
what we could have been, 9:23 PM.
Easter.
nooo. Easter is not about eggs. -.-
well, gonna tell those ppl out there, Jesus lives! =D
Shss is now 4 ,can't wait to witness the birth of Shss cg! whoots~
God is undeniably good. (:
realli wanna take time to have a retreat wif God todae! afterall, Easter is about Jesus. want to take time to reflect upon His faithfulness and the things He revealed to me for the past few months of 2007 , also pray for the ppl on my prayer list and not forgetting to jus soak in God's presence. hohos.
my heart is ready.
take me and mould me. even if there is no one left standing for You, i desire to be the one who can make a difference for the glory of Thy name.
listening-- I'm forever Yours
nooo. Easter is not about eggs. -.-
well, gonna tell those ppl out there, Jesus lives! =D
Shss is now 4 ,can't wait to witness the birth of Shss cg! whoots~
God is undeniably good. (:
realli wanna take time to have a retreat wif God todae! afterall, Easter is about Jesus. want to take time to reflect upon His faithfulness and the things He revealed to me for the past few months of 2007 , also pray for the ppl on my prayer list and not forgetting to jus soak in God's presence. hohos.
my heart is ready.
take me and mould me. even if there is no one left standing for You, i desire to be the one who can make a difference for the glory of Thy name.
listening-- I'm forever Yours
what we could have been, 12:16 PM.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
lame.
eventualli, din manage to go for MCG todae.
well, time n money forbided me to.
so... i bet i missed out a lot of fellowshipping time n fun! ahhh! =\
anyhow, managed to revise a fair bit of A maths todae. the time was quite fruitfully spent. thankiew Kaysee! (:
hmm, found out recently that i have been craving for sweet stuff. i guess i need smth sweet in exchange of my tastebuds' craving and emotional state of mind. woots! so ppl reading my blog now, u should know wad to do!!! muahaha! x)
todae jus felt weird lah. like smth's missing, i bet i know 'wad' it is but jus... (stop looking at me; so eagerly wanting to know what's next!!!) bleh! dun tell u. =x hees.
btw, there's another convert in SHSS! woohoo~ *jumps* (too bad i can't do cartwheels. =x) lols. thank You, the vision is even clearer now. (:
i know certain things are meant to be. i shan't say further. i'll try to forget n go away..
maybe, i should say.. i'm sorry.
listening-- i love the way You love me.
eventualli, din manage to go for MCG todae.
well, time n money forbided me to.
so... i bet i missed out a lot of fellowshipping time n fun! ahhh! =\
anyhow, managed to revise a fair bit of A maths todae. the time was quite fruitfully spent. thankiew Kaysee! (:
hmm, found out recently that i have been craving for sweet stuff. i guess i need smth sweet in exchange of my tastebuds' craving and emotional state of mind. woots! so ppl reading my blog now, u should know wad to do!!! muahaha! x)
todae jus felt weird lah. like smth's missing, i bet i know 'wad' it is but jus... (stop looking at me; so eagerly wanting to know what's next!!!) bleh! dun tell u. =x hees.
btw, there's another convert in SHSS! woohoo~ *jumps* (too bad i can't do cartwheels. =x) lols. thank You, the vision is even clearer now. (:
i know certain things are meant to be. i shan't say further. i'll try to forget n go away..
maybe, i should say.. i'm sorry.
listening-- i love the way You love me.
what we could have been, 11:03 PM.
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
no better way to get away.
blogging is how i express myself.
it's coming to that point where i know i have to jus go away. i guess it wud be of benefit.
so many things jus flood my mind. i notice that i can turn to noone but God.
red n puffy eyes i refrain from getting, i know it's jus not the same anymore. i jus have to accept reality n jus move on.
Os..
realli feel like giving up at times. very disheartened to know the amount of stuff i have yet to get a grisp on, not only maths.
God, i dunno how i'm going to tide thru' this period of time.
help me trust in You..
blogging is how i express myself.
it's coming to that point where i know i have to jus go away. i guess it wud be of benefit.
so many things jus flood my mind. i notice that i can turn to noone but God.
red n puffy eyes i refrain from getting, i know it's jus not the same anymore. i jus have to accept reality n jus move on.
Os..
realli feel like giving up at times. very disheartened to know the amount of stuff i have yet to get a grisp on, not only maths.
God, i dunno how i'm going to tide thru' this period of time.
help me trust in You..
what we could have been, 10:01 PM.
disgusted.
yet very concern for them.
is evangelism and bringing friends over to Christ jus a soul-snatching thingy? ugh. totally disagree.
some Christians jus open their eyes wide to wait for opportunity to bring friends who jus converted to serve in their church without knowing why they do what they do. it is realli not about numbers but souls! how can the body of Christ be united jus when some Christians are competing to "win" souls while judging one another upon each individual's church growth? is that all to the Great Commission? where's the most impt element of love for the lost?
thoroughly displeased.
well, GAP was great. (:
realli wow-ed by Charmaine (NB), she actualli responded to the altar call of desiring to stand in the gap for her friends n family even when her friends did not respond. =D but frankly, certain parts of the GAP thingy was still as "pushy" n certain things i realli couldn't agree. but overall, it was a good experience. (:
YouthAlive is coming to my sch to play for GAP tml!
envious eh? hehes. anyway, tml is MCG! whee~ jiayou to Mel, Siewling n Caijuan. teehees.
yet very concern for them.
is evangelism and bringing friends over to Christ jus a soul-snatching thingy? ugh. totally disagree.
some Christians jus open their eyes wide to wait for opportunity to bring friends who jus converted to serve in their church without knowing why they do what they do. it is realli not about numbers but souls! how can the body of Christ be united jus when some Christians are competing to "win" souls while judging one another upon each individual's church growth? is that all to the Great Commission? where's the most impt element of love for the lost?
thoroughly displeased.
well, GAP was great. (:
realli wow-ed by Charmaine (NB), she actualli responded to the altar call of desiring to stand in the gap for her friends n family even when her friends did not respond. =D but frankly, certain parts of the GAP thingy was still as "pushy" n certain things i realli couldn't agree. but overall, it was a good experience. (:
YouthAlive is coming to my sch to play for GAP tml!
envious eh? hehes. anyway, tml is MCG! whee~ jiayou to Mel, Siewling n Caijuan. teehees.
what we could have been, 6:44 PM.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
simple teaching yet blows me away.
The God That Seeks Us by Pastor Wayne Cordeiro.
preparing for the "unknown". hmm.. realli kinda depicts wad i'm going thru' now.
wad does it realli mean to be a child after God's heart?
we should not be afraid of wad is about to coming or the same pit that we may fall into again. don't run away like wad Adam n Eve did but ask God to keep watch over your heart like David did, take refuge in God. we all may stray at times n that's bcuz we are frail. as much as we hate sin, we try all means n ways to rid ourselves of that struggle in our lives. However, wad's most impt is not about the changing of our behaviour, speech or action, the most impt thing is the change in our hearts. bcuz we behave, speak n react in the way our heart condition is. If we desire to change our hearts, God'll not allow us to stray away.. it's the heart issue! when we hate sin, we're immediately open to God's tangible touch of healing.
1. Guard our hearts.
2. if we crash, don't hide.. instead take refuge in the Lord.
God promises to hold our hands but that doesn't mean we won't stumble or fall but we will never be permenantly scarred! if we hold on to God's hands, we'll be alrite. bcuz ony God knows best. (:
we build treasures in our heart. unlike worldly treasures that we earn like possessions n wordly materials, we develop n build treasures in our hearts, be it good or bad. a good treasure wud be like... when one comes to a conclusion, one wud not let that conclusion take up resonance in him/ her and also disallowing it to colour one's perspective and thus, one will not act in a way they shld not.
therefore, before we come to any conclusion, make sure it's biblical! if our hearts feel the other way, reel it back in. for our affections do not determine our lives but we determine our affections. we have to make a choice, God gave us freewill. :) [Luke6..] we can be rich ppl without wealth or multitudes of possessions, all starts from the treasures of our hearts. we can lead a victorous life not bcuz we know all that's before us but bcuz we know the One who manages everything before us..
cool eh? x) hope my sharing has wet ur appetide for the WOG! hees.
testimony time!!!
whee~ i pass my E maths test for the very 1st time in my secondary school life! shall share details another time. =D God is good! (:
listening-- Pick It Up
The God That Seeks Us by Pastor Wayne Cordeiro.
preparing for the "unknown". hmm.. realli kinda depicts wad i'm going thru' now.
wad does it realli mean to be a child after God's heart?
we should not be afraid of wad is about to coming or the same pit that we may fall into again. don't run away like wad Adam n Eve did but ask God to keep watch over your heart like David did, take refuge in God. we all may stray at times n that's bcuz we are frail. as much as we hate sin, we try all means n ways to rid ourselves of that struggle in our lives. However, wad's most impt is not about the changing of our behaviour, speech or action, the most impt thing is the change in our hearts. bcuz we behave, speak n react in the way our heart condition is. If we desire to change our hearts, God'll not allow us to stray away.. it's the heart issue! when we hate sin, we're immediately open to God's tangible touch of healing.
1. Guard our hearts.
2. if we crash, don't hide.. instead take refuge in the Lord.
God promises to hold our hands but that doesn't mean we won't stumble or fall but we will never be permenantly scarred! if we hold on to God's hands, we'll be alrite. bcuz ony God knows best. (:
we build treasures in our heart. unlike worldly treasures that we earn like possessions n wordly materials, we develop n build treasures in our hearts, be it good or bad. a good treasure wud be like... when one comes to a conclusion, one wud not let that conclusion take up resonance in him/ her and also disallowing it to colour one's perspective and thus, one will not act in a way they shld not.
therefore, before we come to any conclusion, make sure it's biblical! if our hearts feel the other way, reel it back in. for our affections do not determine our lives but we determine our affections. we have to make a choice, God gave us freewill. :) [Luke6..] we can be rich ppl without wealth or multitudes of possessions, all starts from the treasures of our hearts. we can lead a victorous life not bcuz we know all that's before us but bcuz we know the One who manages everything before us..
cool eh? x) hope my sharing has wet ur appetide for the WOG! hees.
testimony time!!!
whee~ i pass my E maths test for the very 1st time in my secondary school life! shall share details another time. =D God is good! (:
listening-- Pick It Up
what we could have been, 7:31 PM.
Monday, April 02, 2007
God, allow me.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
much had happened thru'out the past few months.
i am rejoicing for the growth in my sch but at the same time pressurized. many things
are beyond my control and i find it hard to breathe..
God, may Your good intentions for me sink deep.
i realli hate wad is going on in my life now but if it's for something better or greater, here's my life Lord..
how can i ever elaborate further about how i feel now?
it's like walking thru' the valley of the shadow of darkness without a clue when i'll see light..
but i shall fear no evil for Your rod n staff they comfort me. (:
last "sigh"..... wooo~
listening--Still
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
much had happened thru'out the past few months.
i am rejoicing for the growth in my sch but at the same time pressurized. many things
are beyond my control and i find it hard to breathe..
God, may Your good intentions for me sink deep.
i realli hate wad is going on in my life now but if it's for something better or greater, here's my life Lord..
how can i ever elaborate further about how i feel now?
it's like walking thru' the valley of the shadow of darkness without a clue when i'll see light..
but i shall fear no evil for Your rod n staff they comfort me. (:
last "sigh"..... wooo~
listening--Still
what we could have been, 9:44 PM.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
triggered :/
i wun go back to square 1.
breaking the status quo thingy. i'm standing front to serve God n not man, to please God n God alone.
i want a greater breakthru' in my spiritual life. i'm still not satisfied, i want more!
going back to my first love.
The More
The more i get to know You,
the more i fall in love.
The more i sing Your praises,
the more i fall in love
with You my Jesus, my Jesus
i'm falling in love with You..
with You my Jesus, my Jesus
i'm falling in love again..
with You my God.
little me in the arms of a big God. (:
i wun go back to square 1.
breaking the status quo thingy. i'm standing front to serve God n not man, to please God n God alone.
i want a greater breakthru' in my spiritual life. i'm still not satisfied, i want more!
going back to my first love.
The More
The more i get to know You,
the more i fall in love.
The more i sing Your praises,
the more i fall in love
with You my Jesus, my Jesus
i'm falling in love with You..
with You my Jesus, my Jesus
i'm falling in love again..
with You my God.
little me in the arms of a big God. (:
what we could have been, 1:47 AM.
