Tuesday, September 19, 2006

it happened again...

i dunno why but .. it did.

i kept asking for an answer...
i thought that that will help...
God is Sovereign so He would help wouldn't He?

my heart really sank when it happened over n over again...
i was totally torn n worn out...
i dun wan to do it anymore..
perhaps... it's the only way out of my heartaches..

seek God in prayer to ask for a sign, a beautiful miracle..

guess what? nothing happens but got worse!

And He spoke to me.."wait...".
at that point of time, i know i was wrong...
i wanted to see fruits n immediate result after prayer...
i wanted everything to be settled in MY timing...
God, i need patience n compassion once again God...
No... i need everything... i need You.
i'm sorry for not trusting You...
i know that You did not chose me for mere convenience or by mistake...
becuz i know You believe in me...

i am really... speechless... He actually chose me to do His work!!... but in order to succeed, i need Him.. without Him, i am NOTHING! realli dun wan to give up on these precious God-breath souls... God use me, change me...

what we could have been, 2:35 PM.