Wednesday, November 29, 2006
interesting.i actualli made up my mind to go ahead wif my caregroup to Escape. cuz if u know me, i dun realli like the idea of scaring myself. hahas. but well, yey!... got tanner! :D well, quite a few "breakthru's" i had todae, going for rides i've never imagine myself doing so. harhars. =x what an experience!wooo~ glad to see quite a few visitors n newbies for todae's ECG! thank God for everyone who made the ECG a success n of cuz God Himself. :) somehow, God spoke to me in a very interesting way. approximately 10 of us went into the Haunted House in one single file and... I WAS THE LAST!!! *screams* =\ we went in all jittery n cautious, fearing that some machines-that-look-like-monsters will come out to grab our arms or feets to scare us. They kept screaming after every "monster" came out to keep themselves calm whereas i jus kept looking at the ground, unable to trust if anything might jus come out at the sides of the path. though the journey wasn't that scary after all, i only saw the floor. -.-'' i know i missed out everything.somehow comparable to my walk with God at times. when going thru' difficult times, we tend to get to obssess with the problem itself then realli enjoying the process of how God brought us thru' and in the end what we look n dwell at are our problems.
it's Faith again i guess.
Lord, help me to walk thru' the tough times with You in faith. help me to take a step of faith n lead me thru' difficult times so i may grow closer with You n get to know You even more.. grow my faith!
went to try out Go-Kart with some of them. i knew that i wasn't created much for driving. with my driving skills, i might jus be the first person in theme park's history to crash. hahas. thus, i decided to take the last Go-Kart, furthest from the starting line. going up the slope was easy peasy but it was when going down when i struggled. rather hilarious if u saw how i drove from the audience view. i tapped on the acceleration paddle for a few seconds den immediately braked, my kart's movement was like some old junk car. lawl. i took forever to jus go down the slope. in the end i was 3rd! amazing! then i realised cuz i only managed to complete two rounds instead of three. -.-'' anyhow, i did enjoyed myself. :)
then, it was quite late le. some of them had to go first, so we decided to take our last ride for the day. Cheng, Melissa, Meng n i decided to go for the (18 yr old) GO-KART. *shivers* was rather tired n reluctant due to the fear of the speed until Melissa assured me of her safe-driving n promised to go slower for me. After struggling for some time to buckle my seat belt.. we sped off. my facial expression immediately changed n i started screaming. *blushes* =x thank God we didn't slide back down the slope like some other Go-kart did. i was much awakened after the ride. felt that my face had well excercised after all the screaming n widening of eyes. lols. my face was extremely red n burning hot.. quite funny actualli. ROFL.
celebrated Angela's bdae then went to eat cup noody.
end of fun but tiring day. =x
what we could have been, 9:46 PM.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
woooo~was in the deco thingy for district banner stuff. cool! anyhow, thought i'ld mess up something or so cuz i realli CMI in these area... ART! ROFL. still can't believe that i actualli helped in the painting of the banner. well, guess God can use ANYONE! hohos. =x
what we could have been, 11:40 PM.
Saturday, November 25, 2006
amazed.God changed my burden into a blessing. invited my ex-colleague from New York Pizza for service todae!he shared to me lots n lots of his life story and the things that are gg on in his life now. he felt that his life was boredom n meaningless.. even though he did not receive Christ todae, i believe with all my heart that he will come to find the true meaning of life soon.i've never regretted my decision to follow Christ.. i'll tell the world that Jesus lives! :)
what we could have been, 10:23 AM.
Friday, November 24, 2006
why.a question that i'll never get to find the answer till i see You. i know i dun need to know why but i jus wish i could help...why do they turn away from You? knowing that You are the creator, the source, their salvation and their everything. i jus can never understand their thoughts ,can i? feeling jus so deeply burdened seeing ppl around me turning from their faith one by one. though jus a few of them, it is realli something which bothers me. each soul is as impt to God! no point feeling burdened.their decisions i can't change but the Holy Spirit can convict their hearts. i believe that prayer comes a long way, i do.let me pass on Your love to those who have yet know You. God, hear my cry from deep within!for as the sun rises everyday, my love for You stays the same..
what we could have been, 11:32 PM.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
officially sick.hmm.. led praise wif a weird squeeky voice today. =\ lols. well, dunno y i'm always sick so frequently.. must have a breakthru' here! wheeeee~
better rest soon. short one for todae. :)
what we could have been, 9:58 PM.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
gosh.i'm sick... the ever "running" nose and the horrible sorethroat. (but finally being able to sing low notes! woohoo! ) lols.went to church office again to help out. rather early for me as i would usually be still in wonderland at that time. hahas. x) anyhow, we did the same thing again but this time faster! enjoyed the fellowship there n all sorts of jokes we shared. hees.excited to be able to serve in wwhatever areas i can. lalalas~ must protect my voice well man, Christmas choir!!! woohoo~well.. jus 2 more weeks to Breakthru' camp. realli excited n expecting lots. gg pray for my objectives.. the 7 converts by Dec!God, show me Ur power! :)
what we could have been, 8:19 PM.
totally regretted.i just lost a battle in the mind, gave way to my selfless thinking. i know i shouldn't have sent that sms. i pray that i didn't accidentally hurt her.i've struggled so so much to shift my attention to God n listen to what He says.. within me i jus kept reasoning with God.. ultimately, i know i've failed to listen n obey immediately. :( Arghhh..sometimes i jus wish i was more obedient and spiritually mature. y do i keep failing in certain areas repeatedly? The Word came jus on time during todae's devotion.. that maturing takes time. God is never in a rush but He's always always on time. i'll keep climbing the spiritual mountain knowing that U're the safety harnest that will alwaes hold on to me n never let loose!Lord, i realli do desire to do so so much more for You n Your Kingdom.. to be a spiritual parent.. to rise up the next generation in Shss.. to be an evangelistic worship leader!!! but all is possible only by Your power. Thank You Lord for Your patience in moulding n changing me more like You. if it was not for Your grace, i would not have lived and now even serving in Your Kingdom. Change me from the inside out Lord, i surrender all that i am to You..fasting objectives for tml...1) sheeps to be connected to myself n the cg.2)responsive n workable contacts thru' tml's evaxing.3)healing from sorethroat n flu.4)East's growthbe my one focus God! :)
what we could have been, 12:36 AM.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
physically drained.my brain has been functioning all day.. thinking, planning n working. lols. muscles aching n all those discomfort in the body.but it's all worth it.a different perspective, a different feeling. learnt to love when it's tough to.. not that perfect yet but still trying n depending on God. :)gonna fast from eating ice for a week. ahhh!!! it's realli gonna be tough for me especially when i eat ice everyday at almost any time i could get hold of any ice cubes anywhere!*bite nails* God, i'm gg to depend on You! let my focus be on You! i believe i'll survive thru' this week of fasting from ice! Amen! =Danyhow, today's time of evaxing was quite fruitful n finally get to evax on my school peeps! rare cases man.. trusting God for the harvest is already here! yey!
what we could have been, 1:50 AM.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
wif a fresh understanding about fasting, i shall start fasting once again!Fasting is not powerful when we are not desperate.Amen n Amen to that! :D spiritual buffet!!! yumyum! =Ppraying for something specific, a strong n specific conviction before i start fasting.yup.totally agree.our wineskin has gotta be strong for further growth n advancement. not to only be filled by the Holy Spirit but to be led by the Holy Spirit! let my spiritual senses be heightened when seeking for the lost ,oh Lord!!!there are more people out there ready to be saved than we are being ready to save. one of the statement made by Pastor Jeff which realli struck me. it's true. For we go out n seek, we see those who are lost and have compassion on them, plus, God is mighty to save.. thus, Holy Spirit convicts their hearts while we share.. n BAM!.. soul by soul saved from the Kingdom Of Darkness!!! *party in heaven* =Dcould identify myself in Pastor Shirley's shoes..only one or two names in mind to work on. not bcuz i have not lived a lifestyle of evangelism but more bcuz did not have the conviction of what i was doing. prayed for God to renew my compassion n conviction of my purpose in life.Holy Spirit convicted my heart, teared during worship uncontrollably as different names n faces flashed across my mind. God spoke" These are souls.. not jus faces that u see or friends that passes by." repented on the spot, and God placed a deep burden in my heart for my school n my friends' salvation.i have to let go n let God.that particular comfort zone that i'm fearful to step out of. reminded of my vision once again. y not man? i want to have a deeper desire to complete God's work! cuz if we are led by the Holy Spirit, God'll open doors for us! God i want to depend on You.. i see the urgency! equip me n guide me Holy Spirit!" The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field." [Matthew 9:37b-38]...this is my conviction oh Lord, set it ablaze.~
what we could have been, 11:08 PM.
Friday, November 17, 2006
whee~went to church office at Joo Chiat to volunteer myself. both Assa n i took bus there until our butts hurt. ROFL. nice experience helping out for Christmas. :) anyway, it realli trained our patience doing them fast n accurate.time realli flies.soon, it was time for me to set off for work. thought i had the time so stayed on a lil' while longer after that we went for lunch.by the time the food came, i was going to be late soon if i dun leave that place in ten mins!! and man.. did i panick. we ran as fast as our legs could carry after the four-wheeled monster but it gladly pang seh-ed us. rahh. kept praying n praying till i ran to New York Pizza itself. vooahla! guess wad?? time check; 4:59pmi was still on time!! woohoo! prayer works. :)
what we could have been, 10:21 AM.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
i have to start applying the things i've learnt.God kept speaking to me in the area of immediate obedience n making kingdom-minded decision.yes, i have to make a decision to change! man.. a spiritual warfare. Lord, help me to live by Your Spirit n not by my selfish desires.Spiritual maturity is not by how much u know about the WOG but how u make different decisions in life; to place others first n less of ourselves.i wun turn back on my words cuz You've never failed to stay faithful..a backslider suddenly smsed me n said that she'll come back for service this Sat! Praise You God! woohoo~woah ohh woah ohh woah ohh, i can't forget about it!!! =D
what we could have been, 11:24 PM.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Rahh.guess it's time to apply what i've learnt in the pre-camp devotions.Holy Spirit jus kept nudging n nudging.man... so tough but i shall make the first move. God pls help me!anyways.today's caregroup was great. =) had lots of fun n fellowship together. thank God for everyone's effort in wanting to see the ECG a success. =) though the ECG was postponed, i believe that unity within the group was built further while working together these few days. 3 cheers for East Eccentric!!!woots! a totally new experience for me to do a solo in the song presentation. hahas, my face was burning red lor.. shy mag. =x (unbelievable rite?) lols. Come Home Running.. a song that captures my heart. jus gave what i can n Holy Spirit will do His part in the conviction of the non-believers' heart.. woooo~ hope Xiu Li (the visitor) will come for service this sat! =]oh gosh! starting to miss the mouth-watering cookies you guys made ystd! =P Expression Cookies. Yumyum! hehes.
what we could have been, 9:51 PM.
Monday, November 13, 2006
awww..felt so loved. hehes.rushed for work, (as usual), straight after meeting for ECG.thank God i was not late.. Phew. =x anyhow, sweet Yingjie(Dardar) n Esther came by to visit me n even bought me a candy from Candy Empire! woohoo~ realli appreciate it gals! =) do come more often!!! MUAHAHAZ~ (jus jokin.)there's been a slight change for the better at work. somehow, the supervisors are beginning to treat me better. realli din know why i could hang on so long in New York Pizza but it must have been God's grace. =Di've learnt to appreciate my life as a student n will start living it to the fullest that i can.
trust me. life in the working society can be scary. =\ but i believe God's hand of protection is upon me so i shall not fear. yey!God is good, all the time... All the time, God is good!
what we could have been, 9:44 PM.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
realli excited on how God is going to move in my life..though a lil' scared but i believe Him for His ways.exponential growth! POW! the Holy Spirit that i must not miss..there's so so much more i want to grow n so so much more i want to do for God!Dynamic living. 100% God and 100% man thingy. come on' mag! double up effort!thank God for His faithfulness, Sirui n Weilin came for service n even brought a friend, Rasey, along. Confession and renunciation.indeed, it comes a long way. God has been faithful time n again.. n man, how could i?! No. i have to make the decision to turn back and walk out in faith.. i dun wan to break my promise to God n break His heart..Confessed, repented n turn away from it..Trusting Him for more. =]
what we could have been, 11:02 PM.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
woosh.been quite busy lately, din get to blog much.truely, God honors our promises.. for that i can now testify!Sirui n Weilin came back for last sat's service, joined in for Generations Meet and even stayed on for dinner. but i din noe how to break the ice of awkwardness, felt somewhat discouraged. guess i need more courage fron God.God's faithfulness never fails to amaze me. Sirui, for the very first time, agreed to come for CG without much pursuading and told me that she might bring a friend along for service! Amen n Amen!! thank You Jesus~ And greater is He in everything, she agreed to meet me up for follow up later on. woohoo!realli thank God for a shepherd like PeiQing.. she knows my desire n ever so determined to disciple me.. i want to be like a spiritual leech! interdependant yet keep clinging n sucking even more! 3 cheers for PeiQing, Hiphip hurray! =D i know there's lots more for me to learn n grow but i believe God will be my Perfect guide. =)i want to be a better disciple.. always hunger-ing for even more, being the first to take to initiative to be discipled n learn to be more Christ-like! God, pls guard my heart alwaes.. help me searched my heart with the 2 qns..
what we could have been, 11:18 AM.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
received my very first pay.discovered that they gave me short of $20 odd dollars, to me that's a lot of money!well.. quite scared to ask actualli.but thank God for giving me the courage to ask.they checked n calculated. indeed they gave me short.. but din mention when they pay me back..o wells. =x
what we could have been, 1:02 AM.
Friday, November 03, 2006
went for the Sherpherd: Follow up essential 2; East course.it's the 3rd time i've been thru' the same lessons but somehow i learnt something new each time.woohoo. excited to realli start teaching Life To The Fullest proper. =)holidays. must use the time i have wisely, the extension of the KOG! mehmeh(s), here i come!!! woo~
what we could have been, 12:18 AM.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
whee~ first CG for East E1. woo~have a deep burden for the group and believe that there will be a huge growth both in quality n quantity!we all have the same focus n moving towards one focus, God.we will grow.. breakthrus' after breakthrus'!!!Amen. =)
what we could have been, 12:18 AM.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Rahh...blog's quite dead now... anyhow, this shouldn't be the way. needa get back to the power source n charge back up!i remember the promise. i don't want a further delay cuz God honors promises. i need a time of solitude!!! nothing's gonna stop me. the word 'busy' is out of my dictionary. God revive my soul, redirect my path.. for i know nothing can keep me from Your presence.let my one focus be You.expecting lots of growth n breakthrus'.
what we could have been, 11:41 AM.