Wednesday, January 31, 2007
after a hard day's work...
all i felt is... incompetence..
looking at everything that's going on now, i feel so useless, a sham of a follower. i've done my best to do wad i could, squeeze out all my time to balance among studies, ministries, family n friends but it seemed that nothing succeeded.
i wish i could but it proved that i'm not.
think i haven been a good shepherd.. y did You entrusted me wif all those? Lord, do You realli think i can do it? seeing them leaving one by one jus stabs my heart right thru'.. getting to know wad happened to my sheeps, hurt me even more when i know i could not do anything to help.
i lift my hands in surrender.. i know only You can make a way...
trust in You n not myself...
all i felt is... incompetence..
looking at everything that's going on now, i feel so useless, a sham of a follower. i've done my best to do wad i could, squeeze out all my time to balance among studies, ministries, family n friends but it seemed that nothing succeeded.
i wish i could but it proved that i'm not.
think i haven been a good shepherd.. y did You entrusted me wif all those? Lord, do You realli think i can do it? seeing them leaving one by one jus stabs my heart right thru'.. getting to know wad happened to my sheeps, hurt me even more when i know i could not do anything to help.
i lift my hands in surrender.. i know only You can make a way...
trust in You n not myself...
what we could have been, 10:17 PM.
