Monday, February 26, 2007
hmm.
chest pain again. dunch noe y like this. =\
anyway, had a tough time making a decision but think it was somehow a better alternative.
totally freaked out todae. Ms Ong said she wud call the parents of those students who failed all the maths test so far... well, i'm one of them. realli can't imagine how i could face the music when i get home. =x
but thank God, instead of more discouragements n scoldings, i received more encouragements n spurs. (:
so many things i still fail to get them right... God guide me thru'.
chest pain again. dunch noe y like this. =\
anyway, had a tough time making a decision but think it was somehow a better alternative.
totally freaked out todae. Ms Ong said she wud call the parents of those students who failed all the maths test so far... well, i'm one of them. realli can't imagine how i could face the music when i get home. =x
but thank God, instead of more discouragements n scoldings, i received more encouragements n spurs. (:
so many things i still fail to get them right... God guide me thru'.
what we could have been, 10:16 PM.
Friday, February 23, 2007
oh yes!
praise God it's finally Saturday! (:
woohoo. 3 days seemed like forever. ahh~ love Hanakimi lots! yey! :D Wu Zun rawks man!
well.
deep-thoughts.
God, i need You! <3
(ps: random post. >.<)
praise God it's finally Saturday! (:
woohoo. 3 days seemed like forever. ahh~ love Hanakimi lots! yey! :D Wu Zun rawks man!
well.
deep-thoughts.
God, i need You! <3
(ps: random post. >.<)
what we could have been, 11:08 PM.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
[Psalm73:26]
"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
something shared in morning devotion that realli captured my heart.
seems that sometimes when we are busy, we tend to chuck God at one side temporally n call out to Him when we need His help. sometimes realli make me ponder.. are we living for Him or vice versa? wad is our relationship with God based on?
a pretty good habit to take up. to record our blessings from God in our planner than plainly using it to plan our events. living with God n for God every day. aren't we created to glorify Him? counting our blessing is one way in doing so, giving thanks n praise for wad God has done n how God has enabled us to do certain things beyond our strength.
gonna make my days on earth count! :D
God is the strength of my heart...
"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
something shared in morning devotion that realli captured my heart.
seems that sometimes when we are busy, we tend to chuck God at one side temporally n call out to Him when we need His help. sometimes realli make me ponder.. are we living for Him or vice versa? wad is our relationship with God based on?
a pretty good habit to take up. to record our blessings from God in our planner than plainly using it to plan our events. living with God n for God every day. aren't we created to glorify Him? counting our blessing is one way in doing so, giving thanks n praise for wad God has done n how God has enabled us to do certain things beyond our strength.
gonna make my days on earth count! :D
God is the strength of my heart...
what we could have been, 9:40 PM.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
ahhh!
God pls save the planet from a IT nut like me!!! =\
printed my Lit summaries n they all came out looking so horrifying, waste paper... killed innocent trees. -.-''
well.
thank God didn't get scolding from conductor todae. cca was pretty okay. (: anyhow, all the stuffiness n speed is somehow giving me dizzy spells. yea, unusual. =x argh. so many things i've yet to catch up in, God help me! rahh.
my sis asked me not to tell my parents so... i shall say it here!!!
SANDY WENT TO WATCH THE EPIC WITH HER FRIENDS TODAE! =P hahas. at least i am glad i have better things to invest my time n money in than on hanging out wif friends. God, i pray that You'll soften her heart so that she'll be receptive to Your word.. amen! (:
yawns..
better go now. (:
God pls save the planet from a IT nut like me!!! =\
printed my Lit summaries n they all came out looking so horrifying, waste paper... killed innocent trees. -.-''
well.
thank God didn't get scolding from conductor todae. cca was pretty okay. (: anyhow, all the stuffiness n speed is somehow giving me dizzy spells. yea, unusual. =x argh. so many things i've yet to catch up in, God help me! rahh.
my sis asked me not to tell my parents so... i shall say it here!!!
SANDY WENT TO WATCH THE EPIC WITH HER FRIENDS TODAE! =P hahas. at least i am glad i have better things to invest my time n money in than on hanging out wif friends. God, i pray that You'll soften her heart so that she'll be receptive to Your word.. amen! (:
yawns..
better go now. (:
what we could have been, 10:38 PM.
Monday, February 19, 2007
eeeeks!
i hate leeches.
y can't u understand english? rahh.
when i give in a drop of blood, u jus keep asking for more.
stay clear before i use the insecticide! bleh.
i hate leeches.
y can't u understand english? rahh.
when i give in a drop of blood, u jus keep asking for more.
stay clear before i use the insecticide! bleh.
what we could have been, 9:23 PM.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
dilemma.
did i make the right decision? or did my decision jus made matter worse?
i believe i did. :)
it's realli hard to decipher from certain angles to whether the decision i've made was right or wrong. the torment of the mind n the spirit within me in that 10 mins, was jus torturous enough to go thru'. i refused to offer incense to my ancesters cuz i think it was time for me to procrastinate no more about standing firm in my faith. lovingly, i explained myself clearly why i refused to participate in this practice, but wad i got was an antagonising time of scoldings n threats.. wad my siblings said was like an additional stab into my heart.
i cried like God-knows-what and didn't know how to get out of the room wif those puffy eyes for steamboat (reunion dinner). suddenly, God reminded me of the 3 qns i was asked before i was submurged into the waters to get baptised. the last qn especially, assured me that i did the right thing.
"Are you willing to lay down your life for the gospel/ Word Of God?"
so what was this lil' action compared to those humiliation n persecution that Jesus, the Son of God, went thru' n eventually giving up His life for the ranson of many?
i stand for what is worthy, eternal, unfailing, real n just.
and Jesus fits them all..
did i make the right decision? or did my decision jus made matter worse?
i believe i did. :)
it's realli hard to decipher from certain angles to whether the decision i've made was right or wrong. the torment of the mind n the spirit within me in that 10 mins, was jus torturous enough to go thru'. i refused to offer incense to my ancesters cuz i think it was time for me to procrastinate no more about standing firm in my faith. lovingly, i explained myself clearly why i refused to participate in this practice, but wad i got was an antagonising time of scoldings n threats.. wad my siblings said was like an additional stab into my heart.
i cried like God-knows-what and didn't know how to get out of the room wif those puffy eyes for steamboat (reunion dinner). suddenly, God reminded me of the 3 qns i was asked before i was submurged into the waters to get baptised. the last qn especially, assured me that i did the right thing.
"Are you willing to lay down your life for the gospel/ Word Of God?"
so what was this lil' action compared to those humiliation n persecution that Jesus, the Son of God, went thru' n eventually giving up His life for the ranson of many?
i stand for what is worthy, eternal, unfailing, real n just.
and Jesus fits them all..
what we could have been, 11:45 PM.
Friday, February 16, 2007
time to blot those feelings away.
refreshments! God, may Your holy word turn my life around todae. (:
i can't get u off my mind, i think about u all the time...
listening~ Yesterday is gone.
refreshments! God, may Your holy word turn my life around todae. (:
i can't get u off my mind, i think about u all the time...
listening~ Yesterday is gone.
what we could have been, 12:32 PM.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
*sparkle*
managed to watch parts of the Chinese New Year concert, especially, the Hildan Superstar segment.
watching those peeps standing on the stage n singing to the best they can, made me recall of my own experience too..
i'm glad those people know that it wasn't easy to stand on the stage to sing solo. hahs. anyhow, frankly, i realli do miss the stage. without leading Praise n Worship for chapel anymore n didn't join tis yr's Hildan Superstar, it jus felt different.
a tinge of regret jus came to me when i watched the programme at first. many students n friends kept asking if i was going to join in this yr's Hildan Superstar again n to top it all, Miss Lim kept asking me to represent the class by taking part again whenever she saw me around school. -.-'' felt like i was being stalked or something.. hahas.=x but still i'm glad i know i've made the right decision in not participating. (:
many personal reasons i have, didn't want to affect myself. hees. well, realli grateful to be able to sing in Hope choir, doing something i love n serving at the same time. jus felt great whenever i'm wif the Hope choir peeps, so loving! hees.
definitely as i climb to greater heights of pursuing my dream, i wish my God-given voice would be of recognition as it will be a blessing to others. not trying to be self-absorbant here, but truely, jus want to improve even more n be a better singer for Jesus! but most importantly, it's not too much on the skills n talent, but a pure heart after God's own.
i'll bring You more than a song...
managed to watch parts of the Chinese New Year concert, especially, the Hildan Superstar segment.
watching those peeps standing on the stage n singing to the best they can, made me recall of my own experience too..
i'm glad those people know that it wasn't easy to stand on the stage to sing solo. hahs. anyhow, frankly, i realli do miss the stage. without leading Praise n Worship for chapel anymore n didn't join tis yr's Hildan Superstar, it jus felt different.
a tinge of regret jus came to me when i watched the programme at first. many students n friends kept asking if i was going to join in this yr's Hildan Superstar again n to top it all, Miss Lim kept asking me to represent the class by taking part again whenever she saw me around school. -.-'' felt like i was being stalked or something.. hahas.=x but still i'm glad i know i've made the right decision in not participating. (:
many personal reasons i have, didn't want to affect myself. hees. well, realli grateful to be able to sing in Hope choir, doing something i love n serving at the same time. jus felt great whenever i'm wif the Hope choir peeps, so loving! hees.
definitely as i climb to greater heights of pursuing my dream, i wish my God-given voice would be of recognition as it will be a blessing to others. not trying to be self-absorbant here, but truely, jus want to improve even more n be a better singer for Jesus! but most importantly, it's not too much on the skills n talent, but a pure heart after God's own.
i'll bring You more than a song...
what we could have been, 10:15 PM.
Monday, February 12, 2007
crashing down onto the fact that last yr's O lvl results weren't that all fantastic, all of us were gripped fear..
thru' the small lil' statements of concern my classmates made to the teachers, i know that all of us still hold on onto the small amount of hope that we'll do well for Os tis yr..
realised how people will ony dare to take a step forward into trials when hope still seemed to be within reach. but sadly, many put their hopes on the deceitful world n their "promises".. things that will never get them far or even to the reach the goal they desire to achieve.
i'm thankful my source of hope comes from God, for i know He'll never fail me.
being an important yr, in terms of a national exam i'm sitting for, has taught me alot more than just stress n working hard for good results... it has taught me the importance of depending on God n trusting God for who He realli is.
through my three yrs of serving in the KOG, it is this time which realli tested my faith big time. i don't want to seek God's help in times of desperation ony, but faithfully devoting both my studies n ministry into His hands.
with God all things are possible! (:
thru' the small lil' statements of concern my classmates made to the teachers, i know that all of us still hold on onto the small amount of hope that we'll do well for Os tis yr..
realised how people will ony dare to take a step forward into trials when hope still seemed to be within reach. but sadly, many put their hopes on the deceitful world n their "promises".. things that will never get them far or even to the reach the goal they desire to achieve.
i'm thankful my source of hope comes from God, for i know He'll never fail me.
being an important yr, in terms of a national exam i'm sitting for, has taught me alot more than just stress n working hard for good results... it has taught me the importance of depending on God n trusting God for who He realli is.
through my three yrs of serving in the KOG, it is this time which realli tested my faith big time. i don't want to seek God's help in times of desperation ony, but faithfully devoting both my studies n ministry into His hands.
with God all things are possible! (:
what we could have been, 10:11 PM.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
friendship.
an aptly given Word from God. so many a time, friendships among people are taken for granted of. God knows the need in all of us, that's why friendships are made. (:
one truth that captured my heart was in [John 11:35]... "Jesus wept." the fact that Jesus, the King of kings n Lord of all, teared for Lazarus.. a friend, tells me alot more about who God realli is.
wad happened on friday was rather drastic and somehow.. puzzles me. thru' the short 15 min conversation, i saw through beyond the many years of fear n awkwardness. i saw the real her. despite our own weaknesses, the Holy Spirit convinced me to take the first step to salvage what was lost long ago.
i want to be a Jesus-class friend.
i realli can't imagine what i would be without His love. can't image if God never answers when i call out to Him...
Scenario: *rrrring!" toot.. pls leave a msg after the tone. for help in studies, pls press 1. for a bus to come soon, pls press 2. for wisdom in teaching, pls press 3.
ahhhhh~ never! i'm glad n thankful God isn't too busy for my calls. :D whee~
Noone else can satisfy my soul, only You Lord... Only You~
an aptly given Word from God. so many a time, friendships among people are taken for granted of. God knows the need in all of us, that's why friendships are made. (:
one truth that captured my heart was in [John 11:35]... "Jesus wept." the fact that Jesus, the King of kings n Lord of all, teared for Lazarus.. a friend, tells me alot more about who God realli is.
wad happened on friday was rather drastic and somehow.. puzzles me. thru' the short 15 min conversation, i saw through beyond the many years of fear n awkwardness. i saw the real her. despite our own weaknesses, the Holy Spirit convinced me to take the first step to salvage what was lost long ago.
i want to be a Jesus-class friend.
i realli can't imagine what i would be without His love. can't image if God never answers when i call out to Him...
Scenario: *rrrring!" toot.. pls leave a msg after the tone. for help in studies, pls press 1. for a bus to come soon, pls press 2. for wisdom in teaching, pls press 3.
ahhhhh~ never! i'm glad n thankful God isn't too busy for my calls. :D whee~
Noone else can satisfy my soul, only You Lord... Only You~
what we could have been, 12:56 AM.
Friday, February 09, 2007
iuodbqtdagqye.
rahh. simply hate it. a lil' of y such thing must happen n a lil' of y am i ___ __?
jus within 2 months, todae have to be the 3rd time my eyes swell red.
walking thru' the last few months with Him alone..
witnessed the release of the O level results todae... man, next yr end of Jan, it's my turn.. glad to say that most of the Hope peeps scored better than most of my seniors.. God is real, Amen? watching ppl joyfully calling home to share about their good results n on the other hand ppl shedding tears of remorse, i know that our batch have to work thrice as hard to achieve wad we wud like to see.
GO 2007 O level peeps! chiong arh! (:
i will make my boast in Christ alone!!
rahh. simply hate it. a lil' of y such thing must happen n a lil' of y am i ___ __?
jus within 2 months, todae have to be the 3rd time my eyes swell red.
walking thru' the last few months with Him alone..
witnessed the release of the O level results todae... man, next yr end of Jan, it's my turn.. glad to say that most of the Hope peeps scored better than most of my seniors.. God is real, Amen? watching ppl joyfully calling home to share about their good results n on the other hand ppl shedding tears of remorse, i know that our batch have to work thrice as hard to achieve wad we wud like to see.
GO 2007 O level peeps! chiong arh! (:
i will make my boast in Christ alone!!
what we could have been, 6:46 PM.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
thursday.
as per normal, can't wait for saturday. -.- hahas.
the draggy n tiring week must come to an end! rahh. think all the packed schedule is making me somehow worried. sensed that i'm losing track.. losing sight of the eternal n wif anxiety written all over my face. nooooo!
is Sec 4 jus all about tests after tests? =\ can't wait to see myself having a breakthru' in my overall L1R5. now, it's jus far pathetic. =x
well, went karaoke-ing wif CG todae.. though MCG wasn't successful, we inviting peeps down for service tis sat! hahas. whoopee! go East Eccentric! :D
i know i've missed out on something big time, certainly did. not going to continue on this path of misconception. i want to leave a good legacy behind within this short 6 to 7 months.. that those ppl out there will see Christ thru' me. (:
that simple yet profound thingy, someday they shall see..
i'm gonna dance dance dance in the freedom i know~
as per normal, can't wait for saturday. -.- hahas.
the draggy n tiring week must come to an end! rahh. think all the packed schedule is making me somehow worried. sensed that i'm losing track.. losing sight of the eternal n wif anxiety written all over my face. nooooo!
is Sec 4 jus all about tests after tests? =\ can't wait to see myself having a breakthru' in my overall L1R5. now, it's jus far pathetic. =x
well, went karaoke-ing wif CG todae.. though MCG wasn't successful, we inviting peeps down for service tis sat! hahas. whoopee! go East Eccentric! :D
i know i've missed out on something big time, certainly did. not going to continue on this path of misconception. i want to leave a good legacy behind within this short 6 to 7 months.. that those ppl out there will see Christ thru' me. (:
that simple yet profound thingy, someday they shall see..
i'm gonna dance dance dance in the freedom i know~
what we could have been, 11:19 PM.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
freaked out.
handbell is jus driving me nuts!!!
rahh. i jus can't wait to step down from that hell. that place filled with deceptions, pretence n lies. i've experienced it enough.
why has SYF got to be this year?! the 12 hrs of practices per week jus eats me up outside in. i surely need more time on my studies, i have to survive this ordeal! (to me lah.. =x )
thank God! despite the lil' struggles i have in managing the huge pile of work n cca stress, God is faithful.. my E n A maths are improving bit by bit and the subjects i thought i couldn't grasp, i manage to recall the gist of them!
it is definitely God. without His empowerment, i would be pulling out my hair bald now. hahs.
well, JOY. gonna always bear that in mind.
thank You for all that makes me happy n for melody~
handbell is jus driving me nuts!!!
rahh. i jus can't wait to step down from that hell. that place filled with deceptions, pretence n lies. i've experienced it enough.
why has SYF got to be this year?! the 12 hrs of practices per week jus eats me up outside in. i surely need more time on my studies, i have to survive this ordeal! (to me lah.. =x )
thank God! despite the lil' struggles i have in managing the huge pile of work n cca stress, God is faithful.. my E n A maths are improving bit by bit and the subjects i thought i couldn't grasp, i manage to recall the gist of them!
it is definitely God. without His empowerment, i would be pulling out my hair bald now. hahs.
well, JOY. gonna always bear that in mind.
thank You for all that makes me happy n for melody~
what we could have been, 9:16 PM.
