Sunday, February 18, 2007
dilemma.
did i make the right decision? or did my decision jus made matter worse?
i believe i did. :)
it's realli hard to decipher from certain angles to whether the decision i've made was right or wrong. the torment of the mind n the spirit within me in that 10 mins, was jus torturous enough to go thru'. i refused to offer incense to my ancesters cuz i think it was time for me to procrastinate no more about standing firm in my faith. lovingly, i explained myself clearly why i refused to participate in this practice, but wad i got was an antagonising time of scoldings n threats.. wad my siblings said was like an additional stab into my heart.
i cried like God-knows-what and didn't know how to get out of the room wif those puffy eyes for steamboat (reunion dinner). suddenly, God reminded me of the 3 qns i was asked before i was submurged into the waters to get baptised. the last qn especially, assured me that i did the right thing.
"Are you willing to lay down your life for the gospel/ Word Of God?"
so what was this lil' action compared to those humiliation n persecution that Jesus, the Son of God, went thru' n eventually giving up His life for the ranson of many?
i stand for what is worthy, eternal, unfailing, real n just.
and Jesus fits them all..
did i make the right decision? or did my decision jus made matter worse?
i believe i did. :)
it's realli hard to decipher from certain angles to whether the decision i've made was right or wrong. the torment of the mind n the spirit within me in that 10 mins, was jus torturous enough to go thru'. i refused to offer incense to my ancesters cuz i think it was time for me to procrastinate no more about standing firm in my faith. lovingly, i explained myself clearly why i refused to participate in this practice, but wad i got was an antagonising time of scoldings n threats.. wad my siblings said was like an additional stab into my heart.
i cried like God-knows-what and didn't know how to get out of the room wif those puffy eyes for steamboat (reunion dinner). suddenly, God reminded me of the 3 qns i was asked before i was submurged into the waters to get baptised. the last qn especially, assured me that i did the right thing.
"Are you willing to lay down your life for the gospel/ Word Of God?"
so what was this lil' action compared to those humiliation n persecution that Jesus, the Son of God, went thru' n eventually giving up His life for the ranson of many?
i stand for what is worthy, eternal, unfailing, real n just.
and Jesus fits them all..
what we could have been, 11:45 PM.
