Wednesday, June 27, 2007
i have to.
swallow those bitter and helpless tears down my throat.
after that harsh chiding and ultimate discouragement,
i jus have to break down to cry.
it is painful..
i jus need some words of encouragement even if it's in the most shadowed form.
instead that load of lashing was all that i received. simply jus tore me apart. the worst happened, i was threatened to give up my faith in exchange of my studies and being able to stay in my house.
i dunno what to say but tears jus kept flowing.
i did my best already, what more do they want out of me?
is there realli no better way to achieve a win-win outcome?
deep inside i'm so afraid,
what's next God?
now, my testings are here.
Lord, i need You more than ever.
swallow those bitter and helpless tears down my throat.
after that harsh chiding and ultimate discouragement,
i jus have to break down to cry.
it is painful..
i jus need some words of encouragement even if it's in the most shadowed form.
instead that load of lashing was all that i received. simply jus tore me apart. the worst happened, i was threatened to give up my faith in exchange of my studies and being able to stay in my house.
i dunno what to say but tears jus kept flowing.
i did my best already, what more do they want out of me?
is there realli no better way to achieve a win-win outcome?
deep inside i'm so afraid,
what's next God?
now, my testings are here.
Lord, i need You more than ever.
what we could have been, 10:58 PM.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
ehh.
pretty busy this week,
so pls pardon me if i take some time to reply on MSN and take a longer period of time to do certain stuff. =\
well,
so far tis week...
1. went to VJ to submit DSA form twice! (2nd time was cuz i missed out one piece of paper to be attached -.-'')
2.went for WAM nite! amazing! shall share more next time. :D
3. Mabel is now studying in my sch! wheets~
The End.
chiong off! (:
pretty busy this week,
so pls pardon me if i take some time to reply on MSN and take a longer period of time to do certain stuff. =\
well,
so far tis week...
1. went to VJ to submit DSA form twice! (2nd time was cuz i missed out one piece of paper to be attached -.-'')
2.went for WAM nite! amazing! shall share more next time. :D
3. Mabel is now studying in my sch! wheets~
The End.
chiong off! (:
what we could have been, 10:48 PM.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
hmm,
let the pictures do the talking. (:
let the pictures do the talking. (:
we're suppose to act with the "chey" face but i guess we look a lil' weird. =x
i drew this "EC3" thingy on the sand. nice eh? ^^
breathe-taking moments with the Creator Himself.
simply marvel at His creation.
had a great time with the CG at Paris Ris park. ((:
me,huilin,shuhfen,clarissa,yanyu,angeline,melissa,jingjing. (plus jacqueline&sirui who left earlier)
realli wow-ed by how God transformed my sheeps' life.
love ya all! <3>
what we could have been, 12:56 AM.
Friday, June 22, 2007
well well,
it was a rather nasty day to begin with.
the tremendous pain of the toothache which affected me so much that i couldn't concentrate well during A maths remedial. (i didn't eat or drink anything cold!) i guess it was quite serious. =\
almost cried in front of that teacher, jus felt that i was treated with no justice at all.
all those time spent could have been used for investing in the KOG and in my studies but *poof*, all jus gone to waste jus like that.
lost for words, totally.
***
**
*
but,
thank God for Jing Jing (clone)! wheets!
you rawk my life big big time man! :D
after the awesome and vision-filled prayer walk at Springfield sec with Shuhfen & Yanyu, went to meet JingJing to shop for the food we're bringing/ cooking for tml's special CG. hehes.
laughed so hard i literally teared.
my clone n her twin are splitting resemblance of each other to the extent that even the way they talk and laugh are so similar that it's super comical to be with both of them at the same time. HA!
anyhow, the popcorn was a success! whoosh~
jus simply love the "pop,pop,pop" sound under the lid of the frying pan. (:
i love cooking! ^^
well, had lots of fun time with Jing and Ying at their house.
feeling much better with a sprinkle of hope and a drop of excitement.
yay!
counting blessings. :D
listening-- The Stand.
it was a rather nasty day to begin with.
the tremendous pain of the toothache which affected me so much that i couldn't concentrate well during A maths remedial. (i didn't eat or drink anything cold!) i guess it was quite serious. =\
almost cried in front of that teacher, jus felt that i was treated with no justice at all.
all those time spent could have been used for investing in the KOG and in my studies but *poof*, all jus gone to waste jus like that.
lost for words, totally.
***
**
*
but,
thank God for Jing Jing (clone)! wheets!
you rawk my life big big time man! :D
after the awesome and vision-filled prayer walk at Springfield sec with Shuhfen & Yanyu, went to meet JingJing to shop for the food we're bringing/ cooking for tml's special CG. hehes.
laughed so hard i literally teared.
my clone n her twin are splitting resemblance of each other to the extent that even the way they talk and laugh are so similar that it's super comical to be with both of them at the same time. HA!
anyhow, the popcorn was a success! whoosh~
jus simply love the "pop,pop,pop" sound under the lid of the frying pan. (:
i love cooking! ^^
well, had lots of fun time with Jing and Ying at their house.
feeling much better with a sprinkle of hope and a drop of excitement.
yay!
counting blessings. :D
listening-- The Stand.
what we could have been, 12:02 AM.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
towards 15! (:
the shss pioneering warriors! :D
uh,
mixed feelings. =\
i'm sure it's another wave of testing from God.
i don't want to sink beneath it but i want to catch that wave and sail over it.
as i look at those pictures above, i can't help by thanking God for His faithfulness.
indeed, 'all Your promises won't let go of me!'.
i want to claim them by faith and make a difference in St. Hilda's and Springfield.
though i realli realli dread school's re-opening and the many thing-ies that i may fear facing, i want to give my best in cooperating with God to be moulded to be a better person of influence.
well,
i may not be in the shss pioneering team,
there's still a burden and a desire to be used by God to build a seed community in shss.. the many 'lil' Carys' serving God together. awesome eh? ^^
winning the school is never a one-man-show thingy, let God be in the center of everything that we do. (:
take a look at this:
Ten Guidelines From God
1. QUIT WORRYING:Life has dealt you a blow and all you do is sitand worry. Have you forgotten that I am here to take all your burdens and carry them for you?Or do you just enjoy fretting over every littlething that comes your way?
2. PUT IT ON THE LIST:Something needs done or taken care of. Put iton the list. No, not YOUR list. Put it on MY to-do-list. Let ME be the one to take care of the problem. I can't help you until you turnit over to Me. And although My to-do-listis long, I am after all... God. I can take care of anything you put into My hands. In fact, if the truth were ever really known, I take care of a lot of things for you that you nevereven realize.
3. TRUST ME: Once you've given your burdens to Me,quit trying to take them back. Trust in Me. Have the faith that I will take care ofall your needs, your problems and your trials.Problems with the kids? Put them on My list.Problem with finances? Put it on My list. Problems with your emotional roller coaster?For My sake, put it on My list. I want tohelp you. All you have to do is ask.
4. LEAVE IT ALONE: Don't wake up one morning and say, "Well, I'm feeling much stronger now, I thinkI can handle it from here." Why do you thinkyou are feeling stronger now? It's simple.You gave Me your burdens and I'm taking care of them. I also renew your strengthand cover you in my peace. Don't youknow that if I give you these problems back,you will be right back where you started?Leave them with Me and forget aboutthem. Just let Me do my job.
5. TALK TO ME: I want you to forget a lot of things.Forget what was making you crazy.Forget the worry and the fretting because you know I'm in control. But there's onething I pray you never forget. Please, don'tforget to talk to Me - OFTEN! I love YOU! I want to hear your voice. I want you to include Me in on the things going on in your life.I want to hear you talk about your friends and family. Prayer is simply you havinga conversation with Me. I want to be yourdearest friend.
6. HAVE FAITH:I see a lot of things from up here that you can't see from where you are. Have faith inMe that I know what I'm doing. Trust Me;you wouldn't want the view from My eyes.I will continue to care for you, watch over you,and meet your needs. You only have to trust Me.Although I have a much bigger task than you,it seems as if you have so much trouble just doing your simple part. How hard can trust be?
7. SHARE:You were taught to share when you were only two years old. When did you forget? That rule still applies. Share with those who areless fortunate than you. Share your joy withthose who need encouragement. Share your laughter with those who haven't heard any insuch a long time. Share your tears with thosewho have forgotten how to cry. Share your faithwith those who have none.
8. BE PATIENT:I managed to fix it so in just one lifetimeyou could have so many diverse experiences.You grow from a child to an adult, have children, change jobs many times, learn many trades,travel to so many places, meet thousandsof people, and experience so much. How canyou be so impatient then when it takes Me a little longer than you expect to handle something on My to-do-list? Trust in My timing, for My timing is perfect. Just because I created the entire universe inonly six days, everyone thinks I should always rush, rush, rush.
9. BE KIND:Be kind to others, for I love them just as much as I love you. They may not dress like you, or talk like you, or live the same wayyou do, but I still love you all. Please tryto get along, for My sake. I created each of you different in some way. It would be too boring if you were all identical. Please, know I love each of your differences.
10. LOVE YOURSELF: As much as I love you, how can you notlove yourself? You were created by me forone reason only -- to be loved, and to lovein return. I am a God of Love. Love Me.Love your neighbors. But also love yourself. It makes My heart ache when I see youso angry with yourself when things go wrong. You are very precious to me.Don't ever forget......
to read more about it..
lots whirling in my mind right now.
God, i lay my life in surrender.
listening--Oceans Will Part
what we could have been, 11:25 PM.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
played badminton with Jing's sow contact in the morning.
hope i burned off some fats! HA!
though we're a lil' late for service, we both believe that we've planted a seed in Xinyi's life. (:
service was superbly great.
everyone was super hyper and convicted when agreeing with an "amen" to Pastor Christine. i pray that our conviction for seeing God's work coming to past and the completion of CG08 will never fade off as time goes by, but our faith and passion for saving the lost would move on to a greater height! :D
uhh...
camp photos! =x
still art peeps and the East Acapella Team plus Louis. (:
bern (brinjal) & me. >.< (with sally behind there!)
me and my beloved medic buddy, Lianna! :D
(finally can smile happily cuz the room card was found at that point of time!!! hahas.)
once again, the E.A.T & Louis (acting shuai =x) --> hope he dun see this! =P
me & buddbudd! whee~ we rock! (:
East C, E & F with the Philippino delegates. ^^
the 'convicted' look (according to Yanyu) but i look funny. hahas.
and my eyes are realli obvious that they're blue! :O
EC3 rawks my socks! 15 here we come!!!! :D
last but not least, presenting...
Jingsquare (clone) and myself.
AND
serene(aka vera) and her sweetie pie. =x
hahas.
so happy! todae's converts guessed that i was sec 2!!! wheets~
>.<
well,
that's all folks! (:
what we could have been, 11:51 PM.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
yes and Amen.
today marks the end of First Frontier camp and definitely a new beginning of many more exciting things! (: so so so superly duperly looking forward to see how God is going to move in each and every one of our lives and in our schools! :D
The First Frontier generation we are, set apart for God's work.. great and amazing things that have yet been done before, we will all be the harvesters of the promised harvest.
hmm,
you realli realli want to be used by God but don't know how?
good news for you ppl, God wants to use you!
oh well, simply toooooooooooooo much to share of my insights during this camp by blogging. but if you would love to hear me share, feel free to nudge me about it or smth. i would most gladly love to! x)
thru'out the camp i was tremendously ministered.
many of the personal ramau word from God, and practising of fervent praying unceasingly, realli increased my faith and compassion for ppl by a leap. winning our schools, building a seed community in our schools is not something done merely by human strength. in order to see a revival in our schools, we need: God and, faith, hope and love -> ( clearly distinguishing the two major components with God being centre of the whole ministry that we're serving.) something that realli hit me was when the Philippines deligates that we were hosting, Cheeky and Hani, shared about how they manage to grow their ministry. apart from starbursting and the essence of ' Ohana', it was the faith-filled prayers that they constantly soaked their friends and people around them with, that thus, included the spiritual element (God) into the whole outreaching movement that realli made them grow in quality and quantity.
indeed, keeping our prayer life always at tip top condition is essential as it signifies that we allow God to be in the centre of our lives and we obediently submit to Him as He takes charge of things in our lifes, which includes our ministry. (: the second thing that struck me was the point about diligence. yes, it's great to have a holy discontentment and a desire for God to move. however, convictions without deed is futile. God can never work thru' us when we do not give our 100% to do His work. Perserverance and Diligence are part and parcel of a fruitful ministry. if we're still gonna be tired anyway, why not be tired in such a way that it extends the KOG? Amen? :D
and no.
i'm not gonna loose my focus and steer away from the renewed direction from God once again.
on a lighter tone,
many 'interesting' things happened at camp. here are some of the thingys that happened during camp..
lol, some are realli funny. =x
Day 1: -when having breakfast with CG before heading down to SSS, found out that i forgot to bring my towel to camp. -.-
-shocked to see a total of 7 blue-black marks on my arms ang knee when bathing. LOL.
-played frisbee and went to the wrong goal -.- HA!
-fell down during Down The Flag game. the Endeavours were charging at the Flying Dutchman with the bamboo sticks and the sisters being part of the human chain to defend them kena lo. hahas. totally tramautised at that point of time. (the un-gentle side of brothers.) lol. =x
Day 2:-acted in the Pioneering 101 skit to portray evaxing but i forgot my lines. =x hahas.
-thought i lost my hp but found it later on my bed. zzz. ROFL.
-was super blur in handling the mama shop when we ran out of manpower. took ages to calculate the change i should give back. lol. =P
Day 3:- GAP! changed the lyrics for the first line of the song by accident. =x too nervous i guess but so creative rite? HAHA.
-due to the overnight water cooler water i drank, had diaherria before GAP rehearsels. =\ (thus, had no appetite for breakfast and lunch that day.) rawr~ hees.
-the lift door tried to "murder" me when i was about to step out of the lift. --> so,more blue-black lo. lol.
-lost my room keys (card).
-someone took my camp bag by mistake and place it at the Medics booth. -.-''' that's why i was wondering how come by camp bag would disappear when i was doing Mama shop duty... lol.
uhh..
talking about room keys.
i thought it could be with one of my unit's ppl or someone picked it up when he/ she saw it lying around somewhere in the hall. i search high and low for that miserable tag with the card but to no avail. seek help from the Lost and Found booth but sadly, no one found any tag with the room card. it was the testing of faith i guess, which i must say that i didn't realli pass it with well. the last day of camp came but still the card wasn't found. Evonne gave grace till 1030am if i still can't find the room card, i would have to replace it which costs $50!!! i was deeply troubled by this as where do i get those money by today?? and i can't possible borrow from people again. time passed, and i still couldn't find it. Evonne gave a serious warning that i might jus have to replace the card and kept calling to rush for the money as she has her responsibility to settle this matter too. that i could understand, however, i was so so upset. i couldn't help but tear when i know i had to pay the cost and had to trouble everyone to share the cost to replace the card for me. that time was after photo-taking sessions and we were gathered outside as the leaders asked their cgs to help me with the money. at that very moment was the worst feeling i can ever experience. though their actions were done out of love, i felt realli bad. i walked away and went to wash my face. guess what's next? when i came back from the toilet, Lestari called to say that the housekeeping/ deco ppl found my room card while clearing the place! hallelujiah! i was so so elated, no other words can express my feelings but thanks and more thanks.
wow, thankiew for this family of God and thank You for showing me that You've always been faithful. ahhhhh.. You're so good to me. Nananana~ :D
indeed, God'll never test us something that'll not cost us.
now i know, trusting in Him can be tough at such times but truly important. (:
off to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep. (:
today marks the end of First Frontier camp and definitely a new beginning of many more exciting things! (: so so so superly duperly looking forward to see how God is going to move in each and every one of our lives and in our schools! :D
The First Frontier generation we are, set apart for God's work.. great and amazing things that have yet been done before, we will all be the harvesters of the promised harvest.
hmm,
you realli realli want to be used by God but don't know how?
good news for you ppl, God wants to use you!
oh well, simply toooooooooooooo much to share of my insights during this camp by blogging. but if you would love to hear me share, feel free to nudge me about it or smth. i would most gladly love to! x)
thru'out the camp i was tremendously ministered.
many of the personal ramau word from God, and practising of fervent praying unceasingly, realli increased my faith and compassion for ppl by a leap. winning our schools, building a seed community in our schools is not something done merely by human strength. in order to see a revival in our schools, we need: God and, faith, hope and love -> ( clearly distinguishing the two major components with God being centre of the whole ministry that we're serving.) something that realli hit me was when the Philippines deligates that we were hosting, Cheeky and Hani, shared about how they manage to grow their ministry. apart from starbursting and the essence of ' Ohana', it was the faith-filled prayers that they constantly soaked their friends and people around them with, that thus, included the spiritual element (God) into the whole outreaching movement that realli made them grow in quality and quantity.
indeed, keeping our prayer life always at tip top condition is essential as it signifies that we allow God to be in the centre of our lives and we obediently submit to Him as He takes charge of things in our lifes, which includes our ministry. (: the second thing that struck me was the point about diligence. yes, it's great to have a holy discontentment and a desire for God to move. however, convictions without deed is futile. God can never work thru' us when we do not give our 100% to do His work. Perserverance and Diligence are part and parcel of a fruitful ministry. if we're still gonna be tired anyway, why not be tired in such a way that it extends the KOG? Amen? :D
and no.
i'm not gonna loose my focus and steer away from the renewed direction from God once again.
on a lighter tone,
many 'interesting' things happened at camp. here are some of the thingys that happened during camp..
lol, some are realli funny. =x
Day 1: -when having breakfast with CG before heading down to SSS, found out that i forgot to bring my towel to camp. -.-
-shocked to see a total of 7 blue-black marks on my arms ang knee when bathing. LOL.
-played frisbee and went to the wrong goal -.- HA!
-fell down during Down The Flag game. the Endeavours were charging at the Flying Dutchman with the bamboo sticks and the sisters being part of the human chain to defend them kena lo. hahas. totally tramautised at that point of time. (the un-gentle side of brothers.) lol. =x
Day 2:-acted in the Pioneering 101 skit to portray evaxing but i forgot my lines. =x hahas.
-thought i lost my hp but found it later on my bed. zzz. ROFL.
-was super blur in handling the mama shop when we ran out of manpower. took ages to calculate the change i should give back. lol. =P
Day 3:- GAP! changed the lyrics for the first line of the song by accident. =x too nervous i guess but so creative rite? HAHA.
-due to the overnight water cooler water i drank, had diaherria before GAP rehearsels. =\ (thus, had no appetite for breakfast and lunch that day.) rawr~ hees.
-the lift door tried to "murder" me when i was about to step out of the lift. --> so,more blue-black lo. lol.
-lost my room keys (card).
-someone took my camp bag by mistake and place it at the Medics booth. -.-''' that's why i was wondering how come by camp bag would disappear when i was doing Mama shop duty... lol.
uhh..
talking about room keys.
i thought it could be with one of my unit's ppl or someone picked it up when he/ she saw it lying around somewhere in the hall. i search high and low for that miserable tag with the card but to no avail. seek help from the Lost and Found booth but sadly, no one found any tag with the room card. it was the testing of faith i guess, which i must say that i didn't realli pass it with well. the last day of camp came but still the card wasn't found. Evonne gave grace till 1030am if i still can't find the room card, i would have to replace it which costs $50!!! i was deeply troubled by this as where do i get those money by today?? and i can't possible borrow from people again. time passed, and i still couldn't find it. Evonne gave a serious warning that i might jus have to replace the card and kept calling to rush for the money as she has her responsibility to settle this matter too. that i could understand, however, i was so so upset. i couldn't help but tear when i know i had to pay the cost and had to trouble everyone to share the cost to replace the card for me. that time was after photo-taking sessions and we were gathered outside as the leaders asked their cgs to help me with the money. at that very moment was the worst feeling i can ever experience. though their actions were done out of love, i felt realli bad. i walked away and went to wash my face. guess what's next? when i came back from the toilet, Lestari called to say that the housekeeping/ deco ppl found my room card while clearing the place! hallelujiah! i was so so elated, no other words can express my feelings but thanks and more thanks.
wow, thankiew for this family of God and thank You for showing me that You've always been faithful. ahhhhh.. You're so good to me. Nananana~ :D
indeed, God'll never test us something that'll not cost us.
now i know, trusting in Him can be tough at such times but truly important. (:
off to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep. (:
what we could have been, 5:17 PM.
Monday, June 11, 2007
brain processing of more things than i thought it was thinking of.
First Frontier camp tml!!!
woohoo.
though the anxiety about CG08 and the stuff that might jus pop up,
this entry todae is to prepare my heart for camp one final time.
many things going thru' my mind now.
however, i jus want to submit those worries into God's hands. (:
jus to share with people who are reading my blog now,
my ultimate camp objective is to receive a divine direction from God about my walk with Him and my pastoral ministry.
woosh~ thank You in advance, victory i have in You.
here.
this is my heart condition now.
change it Lord.
3
2
1
gonna go to camp with great expectancy,
a receptive heart condition and that child-like faith to trust in You for greater things! speak to me in a tangible fashion O Lord, my soul thirst for You.
btw,
i found my wallet.
loooooooooooooong story.
great blessings.
shall share more after camp!
woots.
off to pray! :D
First Frontier camp tml!!!
woohoo.
though the anxiety about CG08 and the stuff that might jus pop up,
this entry todae is to prepare my heart for camp one final time.
many things going thru' my mind now.
however, i jus want to submit those worries into God's hands. (:
jus to share with people who are reading my blog now,
my ultimate camp objective is to receive a divine direction from God about my walk with Him and my pastoral ministry.
woosh~ thank You in advance, victory i have in You.
here.
this is my heart condition now.
change it Lord.
3
2
1
gonna go to camp with great expectancy,
a receptive heart condition and that child-like faith to trust in You for greater things! speak to me in a tangible fashion O Lord, my soul thirst for You.
btw,
i found my wallet.
loooooooooooooong story.
great blessings.
shall share more after camp!
woots.
off to pray! :D
what we could have been, 12:23 AM.
Saturday, June 09, 2007
well, well, well.
hasn't been much to blog about,
or rather i'm jus plain lazy and spaced out.
but
of all days,
today had to be the day which i'll blog about....
losing my wallet for the 2nd time!!!
rahh. =\
the feeling is uber horrible.
however, thank God my IC was not in the wallet.
sigh, now travelling would be realli expensive.
ahhh, God! second miracle please! ):
aside of this trauma,
camp is drawing near!
woohoo~
set camp objectives, giving my 100% effort to achieve them by faith. (:
rehearsal today was great.
thoroughly encouraged by the many encouragements i received.
God, thank You for the chance to expose myself to a higher level in using my voice to serve. :D
this whole month, i should say, was like a mega blockblaster.
mountains of thingy jus happen at one go.
learnt so so much at the same time.
more thoughts that only God reads thru' my mind.
hahas, shall share next time.
woo, off to watch Daa! Daa! Daa! :D
hasn't been much to blog about,
or rather i'm jus plain lazy and spaced out.
but
of all days,
today had to be the day which i'll blog about....
losing my wallet for the 2nd time!!!
rahh. =\
the feeling is uber horrible.
however, thank God my IC was not in the wallet.
sigh, now travelling would be realli expensive.
ahhh, God! second miracle please! ):
aside of this trauma,
camp is drawing near!
woohoo~
set camp objectives, giving my 100% effort to achieve them by faith. (:
rehearsal today was great.
thoroughly encouraged by the many encouragements i received.
God, thank You for the chance to expose myself to a higher level in using my voice to serve. :D
this whole month, i should say, was like a mega blockblaster.
mountains of thingy jus happen at one go.
learnt so so much at the same time.
more thoughts that only God reads thru' my mind.
hahas, shall share next time.
woo, off to watch Daa! Daa! Daa! :D
what we could have been, 12:07 AM.
Monday, June 04, 2007
woohoo.
didn't blog for sometime.
well, shall post something todae. (:
an intense heartbeat,
one that will synchronise with God's heartbeat.
building up momentum,
grow my faith Lord.
holidays is the best time to grow man!
with Word for Life, First Frontier Camp and the Connect Journal as a guide,
i don't see why should anyone not be excited for growth! :D
hahas.
hmm, mixed feeling for something aside i guess.
but well, God's my Chief Shepherd who is always in control,
i need to trust in that with a simple faith. ;)
*exhales*
lots to prepare for camp!
wanna get the best out of it. (:
adios~
didn't blog for sometime.
well, shall post something todae. (:
an intense heartbeat,
one that will synchronise with God's heartbeat.
building up momentum,
grow my faith Lord.
holidays is the best time to grow man!
with Word for Life, First Frontier Camp and the Connect Journal as a guide,
i don't see why should anyone not be excited for growth! :D
hahas.
hmm, mixed feeling for something aside i guess.
but well, God's my Chief Shepherd who is always in control,
i need to trust in that with a simple faith. ;)
*exhales*
lots to prepare for camp!
wanna get the best out of it. (:
adios~
what we could have been, 12:28 AM.
