Wednesday, June 27, 2007

i have to.

swallow those bitter and helpless tears down my throat.
after that harsh chiding and ultimate discouragement,
i jus have to break down to cry.

it is painful..

i jus need some words of encouragement even if it's in the most shadowed form.
instead that load of lashing was all that i received. simply jus tore me apart. the worst happened, i was threatened to give up my faith in exchange of my studies and being able to stay in my house.

i dunno what to say but tears jus kept flowing.
i did my best already, what more do they want out of me?
is there realli no better way to achieve a win-win outcome?

deep inside i'm so afraid,
what's next God?

now, my testings are here.

Lord, i need You more than ever.

what we could have been, 10:58 PM.