Thursday, August 30, 2007
wow, realised that i didn't blog for some time.
oh well, aside from tiring mugging, much had caught up on me these days.
sigh. =\
frustrations.
i know i've given my best effort and my all even in this period of stress.
it doesn't matter anymore, i don't have to have their understanding or even recognition. one Audience, i live to put a smile on His face and no other.
maybe, the feeling still lingers..
i jus wan it to be as it is i guess, shall await for a pleasant surprise.. a different perspective of what i see. aye, i realli pray so from the depth of my heart.
sometimes, nothing said at all is the best remedy of a wounded heart.
you say it best, when you say nothing at all..
wellwell,
a brief recap on my week!
saturday- went to Shuhfen's house mug overnight after service and after watching the grand finals of CSS2. lol, she was so crazy over Benjamin. =P
sunday- went to mug at rc with the TPJCians. and i saw Shuning!! hahas, looooong time didn't see her le.. miss seeing her in school and joining them jamming for Praise and Worship. >.<>
wed- mugged at rc with the poly dudes and dudettes and i got my new hp!!! yayness!
w200i, couldn't ask for more.. realli satisfied because it's a walkman phone so i can store more songs than before! whee~
thurs- chaired for cg. i think it wasn't realli a good one. worship was great,
Jesus i believe in You
Jesus i belong to You
You're the reason that i live
the reason that i breathe
with all i am.
those exact words that struck me big time, thank You Lord.
sleepy, diminish! :D
oh well, aside from tiring mugging, much had caught up on me these days.
sigh. =\
frustrations.
i know i've given my best effort and my all even in this period of stress.
it doesn't matter anymore, i don't have to have their understanding or even recognition. one Audience, i live to put a smile on His face and no other.
maybe, the feeling still lingers..
i jus wan it to be as it is i guess, shall await for a pleasant surprise.. a different perspective of what i see. aye, i realli pray so from the depth of my heart.
sometimes, nothing said at all is the best remedy of a wounded heart.
you say it best, when you say nothing at all..
wellwell,
a brief recap on my week!
saturday- went to Shuhfen's house mug overnight after service and after watching the grand finals of CSS2. lol, she was so crazy over Benjamin. =P
sunday- went to mug at rc with the TPJCians. and i saw Shuning!! hahas, looooong time didn't see her le.. miss seeing her in school and joining them jamming for Praise and Worship. >.<>
wed- mugged at rc with the poly dudes and dudettes and i got my new hp!!! yayness!
w200i, couldn't ask for more.. realli satisfied because it's a walkman phone so i can store more songs than before! whee~
thurs- chaired for cg. i think it wasn't realli a good one. worship was great,
Jesus i believe in You
Jesus i belong to You
You're the reason that i live
the reason that i breathe
with all i am.
those exact words that struck me big time, thank You Lord.
sleepy, diminish! :D
what we could have been, 11:51 PM.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
shall update my blog tml.
quite a fair bit happened for the past two days. (:
too tired, hahas.
okay, off to bed! ^^
quite a fair bit happened for the past two days. (:
too tired, hahas.
okay, off to bed! ^^
what we could have been, 11:14 PM.
Friday, August 24, 2007
TGIF! :D
this week had been rather tough,
wonder how many brain cells had died.lol.
went to study with Melissa, Caijuan and Irene at rc today.
as usual we crapped lots at first, then we got down to work eventually.
thank God for Ruilin who came and taught me on organic chem!
though it was quite a short session, it was realli fruitful. (:
God reminded me of a few things thru'out this period of intensive mugging and jus to share three of them...
faith, dependency on God and focus.
interested to hear me share more about revelations from God?
stay tune for my next post! ^^
hmm, should i go to school to view the Campus Superstar Programme tml?
stress filled with spurs to move on.
this week had been rather tough,
wonder how many brain cells had died.lol.
went to study with Melissa, Caijuan and Irene at rc today.
as usual we crapped lots at first, then we got down to work eventually.
thank God for Ruilin who came and taught me on organic chem!
though it was quite a short session, it was realli fruitful. (:
God reminded me of a few things thru'out this period of intensive mugging and jus to share three of them...
faith, dependency on God and focus.
interested to hear me share more about revelations from God?
stay tune for my next post! ^^
hmm, should i go to school to view the Campus Superstar Programme tml?
stress filled with spurs to move on.
what we could have been, 11:22 PM.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
well,
today was so not a good day to start out with. =\
felt rather lethargic,moodless especially towards studying.
sigh..
lots of thoughts ran thru' my mind. however, i choose to let God reign in my frustrations. went to look for sheep at her class to ask her for cg, rather disappointed by her reply.. i don't know what to do anymore. i'm jus going to put my 100% in leading her to You, Lord pls move in her life.
i thank you for Trif for being firm in her salvation and willingly set aside time to meet me up despite having Os this year too. saw the change her attitude towards knowing You more, praise You Lord!
hmm,celebrated shuhfen and Jocelyn's bdae todae!
woots!
so glad to be able to celebrate this NB's bdae. a unique, super NB God blessed me with! HA! noticed that almost all of my sheeps are BHB. hahas, is it realli because annointing flows? hurhur =x
once again, thank you(s)
and i love you all! ^^
alrite people,
pls pls pls jio me out to study everyday!
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! hees.
i know i need that study time and coaching lots,
61 days..
today was so not a good day to start out with. =\
felt rather lethargic,moodless especially towards studying.
sigh..
lots of thoughts ran thru' my mind. however, i choose to let God reign in my frustrations. went to look for sheep at her class to ask her for cg, rather disappointed by her reply.. i don't know what to do anymore. i'm jus going to put my 100% in leading her to You, Lord pls move in her life.
i thank you for Trif for being firm in her salvation and willingly set aside time to meet me up despite having Os this year too. saw the change her attitude towards knowing You more, praise You Lord!
hmm,celebrated shuhfen and Jocelyn's bdae todae!
woots!
so glad to be able to celebrate this NB's bdae. a unique, super NB God blessed me with! HA! noticed that almost all of my sheeps are BHB. hahas, is it realli because annointing flows? hurhur =x
once again, thank you(s)
and i love you all! ^^
alrite people,
pls pls pls jio me out to study everyday!
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! hees.
i know i need that study time and coaching lots,
61 days..
what we could have been, 8:35 PM.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
suan-ing attack!
hmm, wanna get a taste of sour power?
go talk to my sheep, Sirui. lol.
hahas, though she may be quite sour at times, still love her lots.
wahahahaha. :D
woo.
happy birthday Tanya!
nice cake but a lil' too much for me. >.<
listening--I'm held by Your love.
hmm, wanna get a taste of sour power?
go talk to my sheep, Sirui. lol.
hahas, though she may be quite sour at times, still love her lots.
wahahahaha. :D
woo.
happy birthday Tanya!
nice cake but a lil' too much for me. >.<
listening--I'm held by Your love.
what we could have been, 11:41 PM.
Monday, August 20, 2007
woo.
back to blogging.
busyyyyyyyyyy woman. LOL. >.<
uhh, flashbacks!
had East family day at Bedok area after service last saturday.
played Captain's ball, volleyball and studied. =x
yea, jus for a short while. hees.
anyhow, it was after a shower when we reached there, so the floor was pretty wet and slippery. and so, Captain's ball ended up realli hilarious with most of the people slipping and falling on their butts. hahas. thank God i didn't though! if i did, i prolly would end up in the hospital. HA.
well, didn't know why but i think i realli pushed my limits physically.
however, thank God for His protection!^^
to me, playing Volleyball is jus getting the ball to 'fly' in the correct direction. so i jus whack and set the ball in ways-i-thought-was-right. hmm, lesson learnt.. aim before you jus whack. hahas. well,ended up with a swollen wrist and blue black patches on my arms. =\ but all in all, i realli had fun! ((:
i hereby proclaim that i'm afraid of cats!!!! Rahh!
met lots of cats on my way home. thank God they didn't followed me home like the previous times. phew! hees.
realli grateful for Valerie,
pushed me to write faster during Mother Tongue lessons.
i guess i realli perform better under pressurised conditions most of the time.
woo, go me! lol. =P
63 days and counting..
here we go! :D
back to blogging.
busyyyyyyyyyy woman. LOL. >.<
uhh, flashbacks!
had East family day at Bedok area after service last saturday.
played Captain's ball, volleyball and studied. =x
yea, jus for a short while. hees.
anyhow, it was after a shower when we reached there, so the floor was pretty wet and slippery. and so, Captain's ball ended up realli hilarious with most of the people slipping and falling on their butts. hahas. thank God i didn't though! if i did, i prolly would end up in the hospital. HA.
well, didn't know why but i think i realli pushed my limits physically.
however, thank God for His protection!^^
to me, playing Volleyball is jus getting the ball to 'fly' in the correct direction. so i jus whack and set the ball in ways-i-thought-was-right. hmm, lesson learnt.. aim before you jus whack. hahas. well,ended up with a swollen wrist and blue black patches on my arms. =\ but all in all, i realli had fun! ((:
i hereby proclaim that i'm afraid of cats!!!! Rahh!
met lots of cats on my way home. thank God they didn't followed me home like the previous times. phew! hees.
realli grateful for Valerie,
pushed me to write faster during Mother Tongue lessons.
i guess i realli perform better under pressurised conditions most of the time.
woo, go me! lol. =P
63 days and counting..
here we go! :D
what we could have been, 10:52 PM.
Friday, August 17, 2007
cg's harvester's retreat at Cafe Cartel today.
we realli ate a lot, from the free flow of bread to fish 'n' chips, chicken cutlet, pork ribs and ice-cream! omgosh, i feel so so so fat. *shakes head*
we had lots of fun playing the game of " Do you believe?". We're suppose to respond by raising up our hands if we believe that the statement or what was shared is true. i remembered one of the question posted was something that almost all of us believe so we raised our hands together. The next thing that happened was the waiter standing behind Ahbe and asking if we need something. ROFL. Ahbe and i realli had a shock when we suddenly saw him. so funny! hahas. then after that we started sharing some realli hilarious personal experience, especially Melissa's. =x shall not elaborate! =P moving on~
sit tight and open your eyes wide,
for the next few minutes that you're going to spend reading this will blow you away! :D here goes!
two weeks ago, Jocelyn converted! though her parents have been coming down hard on her due to her PSLE this year, she still clings on tightly to God and is ever so excited for cg and follow-ups. (:
last week, Triffany converted! despite something realli major constantly happening in her life, she chose to give her life to Jesus and received Him into her life! fyi, she came for service for many times already yet didn't receive Christ till last Saturday. praise God! ^^ to admit, i'm quite afraid as she's a year older than me and other stuffs but i'm going to guide her to walk closely with God to the best that i know how bacause i realli am overjoyed of her decision to come to know God and treasure this dear friend of mine so so much. (:
Sirui told me that she won't be migrating to Shanghai anymore! yay! everything was so sudden and her parents were already planning to leave in two months' time. i strongly believe that God has a purpose for her to continue growing and maturing in YHope. i know that this time, God has shown Himself real to my sheep and i. God, You're the best. (:
and also,
breakthru's in my life that realli wow-ed me big time.
(shall share a full life testimony some day.) ((:
wait wait!
i haven't finish!
before i left for the retreat jus now, i received a call from one of my contacts asking me about tml's service. but sadly, she hung up soon even before i got to finish what i wanted to say because her hp had no more money. i tried to call her back but to no avail. so after the retreat i went home to call up the contacts and gave confirmation at 9 plus but she still didn't pick up my call, so i thought she might most probably "pangseh-ed" me. However, i received a call at 11 plus and it was her!!! She told me that she will be coming with her friend for service tml! yayness! i was totally dumbfounded.
thank You for never failing to surprise me in every and any way. :DD
listening--Only You.
we realli ate a lot, from the free flow of bread to fish 'n' chips, chicken cutlet, pork ribs and ice-cream! omgosh, i feel so so so fat. *shakes head*
we had lots of fun playing the game of " Do you believe?". We're suppose to respond by raising up our hands if we believe that the statement or what was shared is true. i remembered one of the question posted was something that almost all of us believe so we raised our hands together. The next thing that happened was the waiter standing behind Ahbe and asking if we need something. ROFL. Ahbe and i realli had a shock when we suddenly saw him. so funny! hahas. then after that we started sharing some realli hilarious personal experience, especially Melissa's. =x shall not elaborate! =P moving on~
sit tight and open your eyes wide,
for the next few minutes that you're going to spend reading this will blow you away! :D here goes!
two weeks ago, Jocelyn converted! though her parents have been coming down hard on her due to her PSLE this year, she still clings on tightly to God and is ever so excited for cg and follow-ups. (:
last week, Triffany converted! despite something realli major constantly happening in her life, she chose to give her life to Jesus and received Him into her life! fyi, she came for service for many times already yet didn't receive Christ till last Saturday. praise God! ^^ to admit, i'm quite afraid as she's a year older than me and other stuffs but i'm going to guide her to walk closely with God to the best that i know how bacause i realli am overjoyed of her decision to come to know God and treasure this dear friend of mine so so much. (:
Sirui told me that she won't be migrating to Shanghai anymore! yay! everything was so sudden and her parents were already planning to leave in two months' time. i strongly believe that God has a purpose for her to continue growing and maturing in YHope. i know that this time, God has shown Himself real to my sheep and i. God, You're the best. (:
and also,
breakthru's in my life that realli wow-ed me big time.
(shall share a full life testimony some day.) ((:
wait wait!
i haven't finish!
before i left for the retreat jus now, i received a call from one of my contacts asking me about tml's service. but sadly, she hung up soon even before i got to finish what i wanted to say because her hp had no more money. i tried to call her back but to no avail. so after the retreat i went home to call up the contacts and gave confirmation at 9 plus but she still didn't pick up my call, so i thought she might most probably "pangseh-ed" me. However, i received a call at 11 plus and it was her!!! She told me that she will be coming with her friend for service tml! yayness! i was totally dumbfounded.
thank You for never failing to surprise me in every and any way. :DD
listening--Only You.
what we could have been, 11:55 PM.
wow-ed.
Xinyi converted during cg today and received the Holy Spirit baptism shortly after.
kewl eh? :D God is moving!
bloopers of the day. -.- lol.
1. wanted to leave the waiting room without bringing my bag along.
2. almost left the table without taking my Ez-link with me.
3. almost left the school (until i was shouted at =\), forgot to report to quarantine room. ( i was the first candidate you see.) hahas.
4. after being released from being quarantined, almost left the school without claiming my phone from the office.
oooooooookay, stm realli getting worse.=x
so blur nowadays. hahas.
so...
thou shall get soon sleep now.
nitex! (:
Xinyi converted during cg today and received the Holy Spirit baptism shortly after.
kewl eh? :D God is moving!
bloopers of the day. -.- lol.
1. wanted to leave the waiting room without bringing my bag along.
2. almost left the table without taking my Ez-link with me.
3. almost left the school (until i was shouted at =\), forgot to report to quarantine room. ( i was the first candidate you see.) hahas.
4. after being released from being quarantined, almost left the school without claiming my phone from the office.
oooooooookay, stm realli getting worse.=x
so blur nowadays. hahas.
so...
thou shall get soon sleep now.
nitex! (:
what we could have been, 12:04 AM.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
hello!
hahas. have to speak proper English because my O level oral is tomorrow!
*screams!*
so as not to fumble along the way, i shall start practising now. :D
no 'luh', 'lor' , 'leh' etc for today and tomorrow!
Singlish is so out of my dictionary. ((:
people who are reading this post, you better pray for me or else...
i'll eat you up soon!!! MUAHAHAHA. Just joking, relax. (:
walking closer with You each day,
and i thank You for the many blessings You've given me.
Your encouragement that gives me strength to give my very best in everything i do.
Your presence that has never left me. the promises You kept me in, walking me through every pitfall of my life.
no word could ever describe my love and gratitude to You, Abba Father.
i guess...
i know it.
show me the right time.
trusting in You always.
hahas. have to speak proper English because my O level oral is tomorrow!
*screams!*
so as not to fumble along the way, i shall start practising now. :D
no 'luh', 'lor' , 'leh' etc for today and tomorrow!
Singlish is so out of my dictionary. ((:
people who are reading this post, you better pray for me or else...
i'll eat you up soon!!! MUAHAHAHA. Just joking, relax. (:
walking closer with You each day,
and i thank You for the many blessings You've given me.
Your encouragement that gives me strength to give my very best in everything i do.
Your presence that has never left me. the promises You kept me in, walking me through every pitfall of my life.
no word could ever describe my love and gratitude to You, Abba Father.
i guess...
i know it.
show me the right time.
trusting in You always.
what we could have been, 11:50 PM.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
found out,
so it is true.
sigh,
escapism like that made everything worse.
not one of the God-knows-best-thing i truely believe.
if it is so, why continue running away?
the standard of God that i'll never compromise.
worship; for You not myself.
fill in the blanks.
so it is true.
sigh,
escapism like that made everything worse.
not one of the God-knows-best-thing i truely believe.
if it is so, why continue running away?
the standard of God that i'll never compromise.
worship; for You not myself.
fill in the blanks.
what we could have been, 5:55 PM.
Monday, August 13, 2007
that half an hour in Ben's room was all that i ever needed.
thank You for Your presence that has never ever left me. (:
one by one,
things are coming down.
yet still, i know You're going thru' all these with me.
though noone can realli understand, i'm assured that You already know the reason behind my every teardrop and sigh.
this, i'm brought back to my first love.
Lord, i commit Charmaine, Clarissa, Sirui, Triffany and Jocelyn into Your hands.
though i may not be able to meet all their needs as a shepherd, i sincerely pray that You would watch over them as i help them walk closer to You. Grow me Lord, annoint me with Your wisdom so that i can be a better teacher of Your truth. for now, there are still many things which i need to relearn and un-learn so as to better lead these flock of Yours. with greater responsibilities comes greater faith! yes, i want to grow my faith in You. :D
more than jus a simple prayer.
agape,
Your child.
thank You for Your presence that has never ever left me. (:
one by one,
things are coming down.
yet still, i know You're going thru' all these with me.
though noone can realli understand, i'm assured that You already know the reason behind my every teardrop and sigh.
this, i'm brought back to my first love.
Lord, i commit Charmaine, Clarissa, Sirui, Triffany and Jocelyn into Your hands.
though i may not be able to meet all their needs as a shepherd, i sincerely pray that You would watch over them as i help them walk closer to You. Grow me Lord, annoint me with Your wisdom so that i can be a better teacher of Your truth. for now, there are still many things which i need to relearn and un-learn so as to better lead these flock of Yours. with greater responsibilities comes greater faith! yes, i want to grow my faith in You. :D
more than jus a simple prayer.
agape,
Your child.
what we could have been, 11:09 PM.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
those bad feelings i got turned out to be the worst nightmare.
i don't know how i could help them,
God, heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp me.
i don't know how i could help them,
God, heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelp me.
what we could have been, 11:00 PM.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
i guess the pictures spoke for themselves...
but because of His love...
hope...
and peace,
i can slowly trudge thru' painful moments like these with God.
i can't imagine me without You...
what we could have been, 11:28 PM.
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to Sandy...
happy birthday to you! :D
finally, 13 le. more you'll get to experience in this new stage of life.
no matter what, do ur best in your studies and all yea?
love ya sis! ^^
went for MCG after half day of school (celebration.)
the steamboat was realli good, jus that kind of cozy feeling. hees.
my sheeps and i had 8 ppl who came! yayness, breakthru'!
later that night, went to celebrate Sandy's birthday with my family.
went to Marina Bay to watch come colourful-flying-kites-thingy... don't know what it's called. =P you'll see them tml night on TV! hahas. will upload the pics soon! somewhat, the whole experience is simply hilarious. hahas. ^^
cynical or simply the truth?
Sing of Your great love.
happy birthday to you.
happy birthday to Sandy...
happy birthday to you! :D
finally, 13 le. more you'll get to experience in this new stage of life.
no matter what, do ur best in your studies and all yea?
love ya sis! ^^
went for MCG after half day of school (celebration.)
the steamboat was realli good, jus that kind of cozy feeling. hees.
my sheeps and i had 8 ppl who came! yayness, breakthru'!
later that night, went to celebrate Sandy's birthday with my family.
went to Marina Bay to watch come colourful-flying-kites-thingy... don't know what it's called. =P you'll see them tml night on TV! hahas. will upload the pics soon! somewhat, the whole experience is simply hilarious. hahas. ^^
cynical or simply the truth?
Sing of Your great love.
what we could have been, 1:08 PM.
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
went to Polyclinic with Dad after school.
well, as usual, polyclinic's doc dun say much and they jus prescibe medcine. -.-
sadly, he had to leave for work halfway and my blurness acted up again. LOL.
while waiting for the doc's referral letter, i waited at the pharmacy for my medicine.
happily waited for 20 minutes until i realised i forgot to place the prescription into the box. -.- i'm so the blur. hah.
anyhow, met up with Serene to shop for Mab's bdae cake and present.
i messed up someone else's photographs while they were getting it ready at the machine cuz of my bluetooth! rahh, i felt so bad. =\ IT nut lives up to her name. =x
then, we ate choc eclair and went home together.
the end.
hahas, okay.. boring post.
woo, Serene rawks! ((:
well, as usual, polyclinic's doc dun say much and they jus prescibe medcine. -.-
sadly, he had to leave for work halfway and my blurness acted up again. LOL.
while waiting for the doc's referral letter, i waited at the pharmacy for my medicine.
happily waited for 20 minutes until i realised i forgot to place the prescription into the box. -.- i'm so the blur. hah.
anyhow, met up with Serene to shop for Mab's bdae cake and present.
i messed up someone else's photographs while they were getting it ready at the machine cuz of my bluetooth! rahh, i felt so bad. =\ IT nut lives up to her name. =x
then, we ate choc eclair and went home together.
the end.
hahas, okay.. boring post.
woo, Serene rawks! ((:
what we could have been, 1:03 PM.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
dedicated to those who couldn't make it for FOP.
the stage with Delirious? playing.
the cool mag.
the stage with Delirious? playing.
wow? or wow!
Don Moen!!! nice voice, talented man of God.
played the keyboard and violin at FOP. :D
well, the sermon by Dr. Pringles was one of my favourite of the whole event. ^^
but this time round kind of weird cuz we were all split up into small groups as we only reach Singapore Indoor Stadium at 7 plus due to Harvesters' meet. =x but God still blessed us with a seat each! yay! ((:
(p.s a lil' lazy to blog in detail and stuff)
hahas.
did i made the wrong prayer?
those few seconds of awkwardness. sigh.
what we could have been, 9:20 PM.
Friday, August 03, 2007
ah,
i feel terrible.
God, pls heal me!!! =x
TGIF and TGIST!(thank God iy's sat tml) LOL. :D
i need rest badly.
yay, FOP tml! whee~
the solace place i am running to. (:
i feel terrible.
God, pls heal me!!! =x
TGIF and TGIST!(thank God iy's sat tml) LOL. :D
i need rest badly.
yay, FOP tml! whee~
the solace place i am running to. (:
what we could have been, 11:39 PM.
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
i don't want to remember.
delusion, i wish i could erase my memory of it.
can i?
haha. what a joke!
i realli see the difference in school todae.
i guess words do worth a fortune, things worked out perfectly fine.
thanks for keeping Your promise. (:
gotta get my head in the game.
delusion, i wish i could erase my memory of it.
can i?
haha. what a joke!
i realli see the difference in school todae.
i guess words do worth a fortune, things worked out perfectly fine.
thanks for keeping Your promise. (:
gotta get my head in the game.
what we could have been, 11:44 PM.
