Sunday, September 23, 2007
aye,
i jus couldn't wait any longer.
i have to blog the many things clogging my brain right now.
The kind of leader God chooses.
right, self-leadership is very essential.
i am sure it was a great and perfect time to evaluate myself, my spiritual growth.
jus a wink of the eye and that's how short our lives are here on Earth.
was woken up to reality, the reason why i'm here for.
i guess it's really not all about the Os or whatsoever but most importantly, value-ing what God values.. souls.
i've asked myself, many times, why?
why do i want to rise up as a leader? why i want to teach my sheeps well? why i want to serve the KOG to my fullest? i really don't care if people question my doings or desires but no! , i'm not after status quo nor receiving recognitions. i simply want to see myself doing something for God. because.. i see His purpose for me, because i see His glory which far surpasses my understanding of Him. He is worthy.
maybe i am not someone who expresses my feelings freely, but i do what i do because i really do love God and so do i love my sheeps. simply beyond the limitation of words, they matter to God so do they matter to me. growth is not jus about a change in behaviour/ character but more, the depth of our relationship with God.
sometimes, i look back at myself, the stubborness in me.
i can't help but shake my head from side to side, childish!
yet, so many times of falling down again and again, God has never gave up on me.
i guess too many a time i focused too much on pleasing the Creator than the Creator Himself. too much on hitting goals, too much on growth of sheeps, too much on serving and rarely on Him.
sigh.
what an irony!
as a matter of fact, maybe only God can understand all these babbling in this post.
however, they are heart-felt babbling. =\
my answer to Pastor Jeff's question?
God is undeniably real and thus, i want to give my 100% in everything i do for Him.
Lord, keep me up and burning bright as i choose to follow You..
i jus couldn't wait any longer.
i have to blog the many things clogging my brain right now.
The kind of leader God chooses.
right, self-leadership is very essential.
i am sure it was a great and perfect time to evaluate myself, my spiritual growth.
jus a wink of the eye and that's how short our lives are here on Earth.
was woken up to reality, the reason why i'm here for.
i guess it's really not all about the Os or whatsoever but most importantly, value-ing what God values.. souls.
i've asked myself, many times, why?
why do i want to rise up as a leader? why i want to teach my sheeps well? why i want to serve the KOG to my fullest? i really don't care if people question my doings or desires but no! , i'm not after status quo nor receiving recognitions. i simply want to see myself doing something for God. because.. i see His purpose for me, because i see His glory which far surpasses my understanding of Him. He is worthy.
maybe i am not someone who expresses my feelings freely, but i do what i do because i really do love God and so do i love my sheeps. simply beyond the limitation of words, they matter to God so do they matter to me. growth is not jus about a change in behaviour/ character but more, the depth of our relationship with God.
sometimes, i look back at myself, the stubborness in me.
i can't help but shake my head from side to side, childish!
yet, so many times of falling down again and again, God has never gave up on me.
i guess too many a time i focused too much on pleasing the Creator than the Creator Himself. too much on hitting goals, too much on growth of sheeps, too much on serving and rarely on Him.
sigh.
what an irony!
as a matter of fact, maybe only God can understand all these babbling in this post.
however, they are heart-felt babbling. =\
my answer to Pastor Jeff's question?
God is undeniably real and thus, i want to give my 100% in everything i do for Him.
Lord, keep me up and burning bright as i choose to follow You..
what we could have been, 10:21 PM.
