a few days back, i was so troubled and discouraged by the fact of the soon approaching Easter Service. feeling low not because i hate Easter but because i don't know who to invite for this Easter Service.
being in the tertiary group now, the age group of people that we want to bring to know Christ is slightly more mature. frankly, i didn't really have much friends my age in my Alma mater and the thing is; since we've just transferred not long ago, we haven't started gathering new contacts. i really felt very lost.
hmm, maybe at this point of time you may start to think :" wow, mag is so spiritual!". but i really beg to differ. i've celebrated three times of Easter in Hope and this year's my fourth, and all i was thinking at that moment was, "how can i help to bring friends so that we can hit our goal of 18?", "if everyone has a visitor then i didn't do my best to bring a friend how?". that's for the troubled part.
why discouraged?
true enough that wealth is not everything, on the other hand, there's so much things that i want to do but i can't without money. things like being debt-free as soon as possible, ending the terror of possible toothaches and of course.. short-term missions trip! rahh~
indeed it takes one bucket of blood to inspire a drop.
no matter how much i do, sheep just can't seem to respond.
tried encouraging, correcting gently, reminding and whatever-you-can-think-of to help her walk closer to God, yet to no avail. was so so so discouraged that i just kept ranting and ranting at God.
i asked God:"Why do You refuse to bless me? And why did You rather bless those we don't need money with a job than to bless me who desperately is in need of one?"
then, a sms from Shuhfen came, explaining of some miscom that my name was only sent to that company on that particular day. =x
i asked God again:"Will i really have no visitors this Easter?"
God kept silent for a moment and asked:"What does Easter mean to you?"
i understood what God was trying to tell me.
i know how does Easter come about and know it's significance,however, i've forgotten the true power of the Cross that holds the reason why we celebrate Easter. it's definitely not about numbers nor hitting our goal BUT the love of Christ that we must proclaim!
i took out my handphone and starting calling and smsing away.
out of the 50 plus contacts i've smsed, only 10 replied and Waiman said she would come!!! She came for 1st service and rededicated her life to God! woohoo~ Then, God prompted me to go on Msn to hunt for everyone and anyone whom i can invite for service. After a looooooooooong wait, my secondary school senior who promised to come for service 1 year ago, promised that he'll turn up for service the next day! yay! though he didn't receive Christ that day, through his feedback i knew that God has planted a seed in him somehow or rather. ((:
not only has God blessed me with these two visitors, He made me realised that it is not possible to serve in His ministry without love..
-i want to know You more each day!
hmm, see the resemblance? HA!
this photo is posted for you to spot the difference. =x
i can't imagine if Dennis were to go for a rebond. haha!
went to church office in the morning with my CG.
Shirls was late as she went back to sleep after she woke up! so funny! =P
Due to the limitation of land (sounds so much like ss or geog), we went to join Aloy,Yiqin and Alvin who were watching a sermon by D. Joseph on Virtueous Speaking Church series-Examples of incorrect speech.Really learnt a lot. So fundamental yet essential,received a new revelation about how to use my tongue to build up the church and not to tear it down. (:
i bet Shuhfen's still wondering why we are not suppose to see D. Joseph's face. LOL.
anyhow, we all went to have lunch at a coffeeshop nearby after the great sermon. i had Char Siew rice and Teh peng gao. well, the Teh peng tasted weird to me though. Then Dennis and Shuhfen shared about their funny work experience at mac delivery and stuff. Alvin asked the few of them sitting nearby if their hands would tremble if the hand a spoon for long. And i so have to admit that i will! LOL. Thus, that's why i don't like to drink soup when i have meals outside. HAHA. maybe i need a hand guard or something... hahahaha! :D
after the hearty meal, we went back to church office for our CG's prayer meet. it was a great time of worshipping and praying for our friends that we want to see coming to know Jesus in this coming Easter! i'm so excited! i sincerely believe that if we have love God and love people, God'll bless us with the joy of witnessing our friends crossing the line to salvation! 18 is not a problem! :DD Jiayou ENGIT 4~
what happened after prayer meet?
it's a secret! *shh*
yay! karaoke next monday! ((:
yea, that should be the word.
what more can i do to draw her closer to You oh Lord?
still, i want to trust that prayer comes a long way.
guide me, lead me, show me Your way.
i realised that this blog has been rather dead for quite some time. *touchwood!* LOL.
yea, it's been 4 years 1 month and 18 days serving the Lord in the Youth ministry! hahas. :D to say long, not that long.. to say short also not that short. hees. yup, i'm really blessed and am privilledged to have served in this ministry since sec 1. Serving with the East family has taught me what love really is all about. Through many restructures, working with different people, pioneering different schools and taking up sheeps with different personalities have moulded me in maturing to grow more and more Christ-like. i must say that i'm still far far far far faaaaaaaarrrrr away from perfection, however, i'll continue to work on it through this race to the finishing line. ((:
If i'm gonna say that i wouldn't miss the youth people or East district, i would have jus sinned. Definitely, i will miss everyone in youth and the many memories created here because this is also where i started to serve God and live a life of purpose for His cause.. where i grew from a spiritual baby to a more mature child of God. thank you each and every individual in East that has made an impact in my walk with God ^^ yeah! Be it the fun times, tough times, barren times or fruitful times, i will always remember the memories of how God has blessed me with this bunch of zealous and loving people who has given their lives to build the KOG! :D
(to be continued...)
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