Wednesday, July 30, 2008

i've lost nothing yet i've gained so so much more.
these things that sometimes i just neglected, overlooked..

i gotta leave that scratch, abandon that dungeon of darkness and remember the beginning.. of how far i've came and not how far i still have to go. (:

Thank You Daddy and _______. :D

(to be continued..)

what we could have been, 7:31 PM.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

finally! a post with picture! woo~
hehes, really wanna thank God for this woman. hoho!~ :D

thanks for sharing your life with me, encouraging me, listening to me and serving God together with me. i believe your life has inspired many and many lives are touched by you! really glad to have such a loving and caring sheepmate, buddy and friend. ((: continue to serve God with that humble spirit and love people for who they are, i'll always stand up for you lady! jiayou jiayou, 4 more to unit size!~ :DD remember our goal? *smiles*

let's do it for Jesus! ^^ love ya buddy!~

agape, Carys. (:

what we could have been, 1:59 AM.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Set The World On Fire
by Britt Nicole.

Lyrics:
I wanna set the world on fire
Until it’s burning bright for You
It’s everything that I desire
Can I be the one You use?

I, I am small but
You, You are big enough
I, I am weak but
You, You are strong enough to
Take my dreams
Come and give them wings
Lord with You
There’s nothing I can not do
Nothing I cannot do

I wanna feed the hungry children
And reach across the farthest land
And tell the broken there is healing
And mercy in the Father’s hands

My hands my feet
My everything
My life, my love
Lord, use me

I wanna set the world on fire
I wanna set the world on fire, yeah

I’m gonna set the world on fire
Set the world on fire

thank God for that particular sister that shared her life to me.
thank You Lord for granting me the courageous to be daring to be vulnerable, to be open about my weaknesses to people. thank You for letting me know that i'm not alone and that it's only when i'm weak that i'm strong once again in You. (:

i'm looking forward to see myself having a breakthrough in this area of my life. the constant struggles within me are frustrating but Lord, i'm gonna trust in You..

meaningful lyrics that expresses my heart's cry,
(to be continued..)

what we could have been, 1:51 AM.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

i saw,
clearer than ever.

all my weaknesses that i cannot hide, all those an eyesore.
i feel so small, so naked and so ugly..
all these feelings just came back to me all at once.

with all these mixed emotions and struggles..
God, can You really still use me?

S.T.O.P!!!

Lord, i really don't want all these negativity in me.
i may struggle but i don't want to be defeated!
may my heart and mind be fully Yours..

-i surrender..

what we could have been, 12:12 AM.

Monday, July 21, 2008

noticed how much i really treasure memories,..

sorry dad, i didn't mean it. =\

but still, praise the Lord! nothing was lost! woo~ :D

went bowling with my family today as an early birthday celebration for my mom. (:
loads of funny things happened throughout the day and i believe that this wholesome time spent together has knitted us a knot closer with one another. ((: i guess maybe sometimes i just ain't that good at expressing love but one thing that stays engraved in my heart is that i'll always love them as a blessing from God and i'll never stop living out/ sharing my faith to them until they come to know Him. yes! i'm really convicted about that. ^^

ps: will update photos soooon!~ :DD

what we could have been, 1:01 AM.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

reminded,

wept,

pondered..

what we could have been, 2:43 AM.

Sunday, July 06, 2008

spent some time catching up with the Ex-Engit 4 peepos at Sentosa today.

we celebrated Pris's and Daphne's belated birthday! ^^ and it was really a splash, literally.. HAHA! Dennis Chua the lgs poured a whole bucket of water on me without me knowing, and the best part is.. i didn't bring along any extra clothes. =\ felt super eeky man!

left earlier to join my family as it was suppose to be a family day today.
dad drove us down to Kallang's KFC and after the fattening meal, we headed down to Kallang Leisure Park for a walk. well, it's a pity most shops were either not opened yet or already closed. But nevertheless, we managed to check out the Kallang Bowl and the arcade. Really could see how much dad and mum love to and miss bowling during their dating days through their gaze on the players.

yay! so excited man, we'll be going to bowl as a family on mum's birthday! woo~ :DD Arcade was great too. we played the basketball thingy pair by pair and mum kept laughing when i had to jump to shoot each time as i'm vertically challenged. HAHA! i'm secure k! =P Also, the way my brothers' attempt to shoot but the ball came flying at them really tickled me pink! lol. really enjoyed the time spent together with my family and i'm so blessed to see how God has changed things in my family gradually. Thank You Lord.. ((:

It's so true that love is tested the most when you're living under the same roof as someone else. we see one another's flaws and weaknesses each and every day that sometimes love can become so conditional. Seeing the lives that they're living, after financial wealth, worrying that we may not have enough to live on, after report cards filled with A grades, after friendships that they thought they could depend on emotionally and even searching within themselves for someone who truly understands them beyond the surface.

i'm greatly burdened.
Because i have tasted the fullness and goodness of Christ in my life, i know that the idea they have about a fulfilling life are just merely chasing wind. God, i believe You've placed me in this physical family for a reason. Lord, use me to touch their lives in small and big ways so that they'll see that You're indeed real in my life. (:

And anyone around can see, just how good You've been to me.
For all my friends who don't know You, i pray that You would save them too..

Qn: What is my burden? Why am i convicted about what i'm convicted about?

what we could have been, 10:35 PM.